Em's Feverish Blossom

:: RIGHT HERE WAITING ::

2012-02-12T19:06:00.011+08:00

Hello earthlings! It's raining right now and I'm lovin' it. The weather's been horrible these few days. It was like my skin would tear off in no time. So yea, the rain would probably kill the heat. Just now, I watched Forever Michael Tribute Concert and Michael Jackson's This Is It on FoxMovies. It made me start thinking, shouldn't there be more tributes for Whitney Houston showing on television? And E entertainment was showing a documentary programme regarding the death of Michael Jackson too. But oh well, Whitney Houston's a really awesome singer with powerful voice. Her songs are full of emotions and love. R.I.P. Whitney Houston. You will be remembered forever :) .

Yesterday, I went for string ensemble practice as usual. My teacher put me into violin 2 because there were only a few members of violin 2 who were present. I thought it was just for practices so the entire practice wouldn't sound so unequal since virtually all violin 3 players were present. I went and sat next to Shawn. Then after that, I only realized that my name would be put under violin 2 for our April's performance. I was so so so pissed off! Last year, I used to be in violin 2. Then teacher said that I should be promoted to violin 1. Then after a few practices, she told me that violin 3 needed more violinists so she put me into violin 3. After so many practices, I can practically memorize which part is the soloist's melody and which is not. I can already muster each and every part of the scores so well. And now, I have to practise all over again. Different scores, different sections, different friends, different style! It's so unfair why I'm the sole violinist who is changed to other groups anytime she likes! People call me a football 'cos teacher gets to kick me from this place to that place and that place to another place whenever she wants!

Another thing is that, I'm gonna sit for my grade 8 violin exam in June and yes, FINALLY I get to go for the exam. But I seriously DO NOT want to be yelled during classes. I hate the exam pieces I hate them! I can't believe that there are actually such lousy composers who would think that their pieces are good enough to be the exam pieces. THEY'RE LOUSY. The main point is that, THERE'S PRACTICALLY NO MAIN MELODY AT ALL. It's really hard for me to muster the pieces I don't like. Hence, I get scolded during classes and the teacher starts to yell at me without even caring about my feelings. I feel so devastated, useless and I just want to forsake, NOW. If I were to go for exam at the right time, I WOULD HAVE FINISHED GRADE 8 WHEN I WAS 13! Sometimes, it's not utterly the students' fault for not practising. It's the teacher who doesn't take things seriously and shirks all her responsibilities when she's supposed to be in class during lessons all the time, to be able to communicate with the students, TO KNOW WHEN IS THE RIGHT TIME TO FOOL AROUND AND WHEN IS NOT.

Honestly, I didn't plan to type all of these craps here but my fingers just couldn't stop typing. My heat is rising, so yea, forgive me. Last last Saturday was Kuen Cheng's Chinese New Year celebration. I went back and it was awesome! I got to meet up with all my friends who I really missed a lot, my teachers and my juniors! The guys have grown so much taller and I was amazed how guys could grow so quickly in such a short period! I had to lift up my head to look at them and it felt strictly awkward, :D . The school was utterly decorated with red lanterns and sorts. Felt completely different in Sri KL as Sri KL wasn't decorated for CNY. We took some photos outside Sr1ScA and we crapped a lot.

I received a letter from Kuen Cheng on Friday last week. It felt darn good to receive something from that school. Hah, and it was to inform me to collect RM100. So, on the next day, I chose to go at the time when they were having their lunch break so that I could meet them. I had to make my dad wake up early 'cos their lunch break was at 9.45pm. When I was there to collect the money from a teacher, she told me that all students from Sri KL are excluded because Sri KL is under Sri KL International School. I was damn pissed off 'cos I went there all the way from Puchong and eventually she told me that I couldn't get it? And, I'm not even studying in an international school. They seriously have no idea how to differentiate Sri KL School and Sri KL International School -.- .

On Sunday, the family and I had dinner with the family from my mother's side. Not many of my relatives came but we still had lots of fun. YeeSang has always been my all time favourite but I only get to eat it during Chinese New Year. Oh and, Chinese New Year has ended. It feels terrible as there are no CNY cookies, CNY angpaus, CNY fire crackers, CNY drama and movie marathons anymore!!

I went for Karaoke with Wendy, Shuqi, ZhiSan and YiTeng on Thaipusam. We didn't sing, WE SCREAMED, as usual. It's simply tough for us to not scream when we're together in the kbox. We always love to challenge ourselves by singing the songs with really high pitch, for example: I will always love you, JianAo and some other Chinese songs from the old generations. Yea we're just awesome like that ;) . Also, RedBox provided us YeeSang for FREE and it tasted pretty goooood. But sad thing was that only few of us could make it. One had to go for tuition, another one had high fever, another retarded one had sore throat. However, we had real fun and it's their loss for not turning up :P .

I don't get why people on Facebook

have to tell the entire world

that they're single

and it's gonna be a lonely Valentines' Day for them.

C'mon,

get a life.

xoxo

:: FROM THE ASHES ::

2012-01-29T17:55:00.009+08:00

Good evening everyone! Sorry for not updating recently but I was superbly busy these few days. Homeworks are seriously stressing me up. I didn't have to do my homeworks when I was in my previous school. Well, I had to but I didn't want to. All I had to do was to copy, copy and COPY. Simple and nice :) . But I told myself that copying won't do me any good and it's definitely not helping me on enhancing those subjects drastically. So yea, I'm starting to learn to not copy and do everything on my own. Doesn't sound like me at all, haha. But firstly, I so so so need to improve my time management.

31st of January was my birthday and it wasn't too bad. At least a little bit better than what I expected earlier. I was expecting for a day which I would be lonely and it wouldn't even be my birthday that I will actually remember. But one thing was that in school, YingYing remembered my birthday and so everyone in the class knew it was my birthday. They started wishing me and they sang me birthday song as well. I felt the warmth, lol. We were in the Bio-lab and I was sitting beside Joyce. We were talking for 2 periods and when she knew it was my birthday, she kept saying that she felt really sucky 'cos she didn't know it was my birthday. The point is, we were talking for 2 periods! Haha, I didn't mention that to her 'cos I don't think it was necessary, though.

You might be staring at my dad in the last photo. Wondering why does he look so gay huh? Nahh, he wanted to cover his body with the pillow 'cos he wasn't wearing a shirt, haha. So, Chinese New Year is coming to an end. How's your CNY so far? Mine was okay and nothing special happened. The family and I went back to daddy's hometown. Missing the peace over there already :D . We also went to Thailand, as usual.

Dear GongGong, how are you in heaven up there? I sincerely wish you a very happy Chinese New Year and I hope you feel the sincere in me. I miss you so much. I want you to tell me more jokes which no one could ever tell me better. I want you to cook me maggie for supper when I feel hungry that I can feel the love from you through the noodles :) . I want to see you combing your bald head with gel to make your head look shinny. I want you to make me milo and say it's coffee. Why is God so cruel? Why did God ever take you away from us without even giving us an opportunity to say goodbye?

On the last day of school before CNY holidays, I was so excited and I was waiting for the bell to ring during the last period. When school was dismissed, my classmates gathered their iPhones on the table. I was surprised how people nowadays love iPhone so much. Then, we went to the canteen and had our lunch. It was nasi lemak and it didn't taste that bad. Today's was quite terrible 'cos we had tomato rice, chicken (which I'm completely sick of it already), salmon and vege for lunch. The rice tasted pretty eccentric. But it's still bearable. Well at least it's better than the tomato spaghetti in school -.- . Worst was mushroom soup. You wanna know how bad the mushroom soup tasted like? You can go and get mushroom soup in can, cook it and mix it with MILK. I almost have puked out everything after my first sip. Nobody in school will ever think that it's nice.

School is getting much better already. I am starting to get used to the new environment, teachers and friends. To be frank, the friends there are nicer far beyond my expectation. I had fun with a few of them who I would like to introduce here: Tharchanna (my first Indian friend and it's utterly fun to be with her. She's talkative, hilarious and kind. I love her :D ), Nura (my second Malay friend. She has beautiful teeth, haha!), Joyce (the awesome friend of mine who sits beside me. She calls me a loudspeaker and says she's a mouse 'cos she's shy. As a matter of fact, she can be pretty loud but oh well, I still win when it comes to comparing the loudness between Joyce and I XD ), LingHui (another awesome friend of mine who sits behind Joyce. She has a smart look that makes me feel tiny sometimes :D . She talks a lot, but I ALSO win when it comes to comparing :D ), YingYing (my good friend who has countless of similarities with me. She's adorable 'cos she has 2 dimples. The way she speaks is also very very cute. She does not sound like a form 4 student at all! I love talking to her :D ), Jinghann (a very friendly friend who is always busy with her prefect duty but I still love her lots, heh. She always has the AC remote control with her which I find it pretty cute. And, she's a great swimmer :) ), Crystal (who sits next to me. She's smart and funny. She belongs to the school's volleyball team and I envy how she can cope with both sports and studies. She's awesome too!) and Sheena (my 2nd Indian friend who is in red house with me. Sadly, she's transferring to another school soon ;( ).

There are also some other friends who are really nice, like ChengMun, Senoja, WenQian, ShuHuan, SiuChing, ShunEe, WaiHoe, Ryan, Aaron, TzeSheng, NelSern and dot dots. Life's getting so much better and I'm lovin' it. How's yours ;) ?

It is not length of life

but depth of life that matters.

Make your life wonderful

and full of challenges.

xoxo

:: KISS GOODBYE ::

2012-01-20T15:56:00.012+08:00

Good day peeps! Today's the last day of school before CNY holidays. Since I didn't get to go anywhere right after school, I have plenty of time to blog right now. I'll talk about school in my next post, just so you're curious why I'm not updating about it, haha. In this post, I have some messages to my friends in Kuen Cheng. I don't know if they will actually read it, I don't know if they actually know the existence of this blog, but I'll just write. Since school has restarted, I only realized how much I missed them and how much I regretted not appreciating and cherishing each time I had fun with my friends. These days, I've been recalling the moment when we sang together while I was playing the guitar during recesses on Thursdays, the moment when we couldn't stop talking about TVB dramas, the moment when we were scratching our head off solving all the mathematics equations, the moment when we were all helping each other on PMR and JUEC revisions, the moment when we took our junior graduation slip...... The moments which nothing and no one else could ever replace.

Dear HooYiTeng, I knew you when we were Form 2 and you're my smartest friend on this planet earth. You're so awesome I just can't find a reason to dislike you. You're friendly and affable. That is why I feel really lucky to have you as one of my best friends. Until now, you're still the one who coaxes me to think of the positive sides. Thanks for giving me perennial joy.

Dear LimJieXi, you're an adorable girl with cute bangs, which totally reminds me of Japanese. We can talk non-stop that we won't even realize if any catastrophes is hitting us. You're intelligent and diligent. Hoping that we can meet up sooner or later.

Dear CheowZhiSan, okay, I seriously do not know where to start with :D . YOUUUUUU, I think you're like my bestest best best best friend and I won't be able to breathe without you. You're like a system in my body that provides me oxygen. This shows how vital you are to me, cheow :) . I remember how we used to talk about HongKong dramas DURING exams when we were in primary school. We weren't that close at that time. Then on the 2nd day of high school, FuLaoShi smartly ordered you to sit next to me. And that's where out story began. You're the sole person who never fails to console me, make me feel like hitting you, make me LMAO, make me feel really annoyed with your philosophy, pull me up when I collapse, make the ugliest face I've ever seen, make the most disgusting flirty face, and most importantly, make me realize how important friends are in life. One day, if I were to write a story between a friend and I, you're my number one option :D .

Dear LeongJiaWen, no wait, you aren't LeongJiaWen! You are AUNTY LEONG! Hahahaha. We used to be ordinary friends who would just walk pass each other without even saying hi and bye. Then when we were form 3, you sat behind me. We started knowing each other more and finally, we became the craziest students in class. No wait, I wasn't crazy. YOU MADE ME CRAZY!! Ahh, now I get it. LeongJiaWen, I now declare that you are sentenced to death for making me CRAZY :P . I hate you! Nahhh, I love you :) .

Dear AngZhuanYuan, seriously, I do not know how to convey my love for you in mere words, son :) . You're the sun that makes me shine, you're the music that clears my chaos, you're the smile that makes me happy, you're the tissue that wipes away my tears, you're the ears that always listen to my words, you're the food that provides me energy, you're the fan that cools me down, you're the eyes that make me see more of the world...... YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING! You're not my friend, you don't deserve to be my friend, 'COS YOU DESERVE MORE! I Love You Forever & Always :) .

Dear SoonRueChien, you bad bad girl who makes me go MORE crazy just like how Aunty Leong did to me! Hahaha, just kiddin'. First of all, I would like to congratulate you as you have successfully become the president of KC school band! I wanna see more of you conducting 'cos you're simply HOT! Heh, and COOL! I really enjoy going for karaoke with you 'cos you have melodious voice like a hummingbird! Remember the times when you, Aunty Leong and I were thinking of the melodies for the lyrics before JUEC? It was awesome! I genuinely wish you luck for being Cheow's seat partner. I don't want you to turn abnormal after spending too much time with her, hahaha :D .

Dear LeeGillian, you're a very hyper friend of mine and I feel way too peaceful without any hyper friends around in my new school. You're helpful and considerate. The most precious moment we had together was when we suffered studying together in the library when we were having PMR. You gave me motivations, positive encouragements and full support. I wish you luck in your future to excel in all your examinations. I hope to see you being the best athlete in school one day :) . You and I, MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE LIKE JAGGER!

Dear TzarinaMustapa, MUMMAAAAAAAY!! Haha, you're the sexiest belieber ever! *rawr* Whenever I recall how I started talking to you for the very first time, I'll just laugh non-stop. And yes, it was JUSTIN BIEBER who started our conversation :D . I love spending time with you because both of us play same kinds of songs on the guitar! Love 'ya mum :) . Dear Nini, GRAMMAAAAAA!! First of all, you're a really cute and nice person. You're fun to chat with and I love how you always make me feel happy to see you 'cos when I see you, I see the word 'cheerful', haha. Oh oh oh, there was one time when we were jumping up and down for the entire break in JR3B, remember? WE WERE DARN RETARDED! WHY DID WE ACTUALLY DO THAT? Hahaha, but heck it was fun jumping around with you ;) .

Dear ChaiYiLing, MY DEAREST HUBBAAAAAAAY!! You're my most beloved hubby ever that sometimes I would ask myself, how great would it be if you were born a boy!? Haha, I'll definitely woo you 'till the end of my life. We started to get closer and closer because of cartoons. Gawsh, I still can't believe it XD . We were talking about Dibo, Higglytown Heroes and so forth! You're really adorable and I envy you because you have nice and fair skin :D . I hope you're enjoying yourself in Sri Garden and hopefully we can meet up soon. Love you forever & always, wifey :) .

Dear Charmaine, DADDAAAAAAY!! You're humorous, sporty, and BEAUTIFUL! Have I ever told you that some people in my class (JR3A I meant) told me that you're beautiful? Hah, now I'm telling you this if I haven't! I have to agree with them because you were born pretty with beautiful eyes! If I were telling you about this in person, YOU'LL DEFINITELY SHOW ME THAT DISGUSTED EXPRESSION :DD ! I don't understand why I don't have your genes. I actually FAILED my basketball test last year and you're a player from the school's basketball team. This is SHAMEFUL :( . Anyways, I hope you'll have a great year of 2012. We must hang out before the end of the world yeaaaa!

Dear LooWendy, bwahaha YOU SEXY LOO! We're already really great friends when we were standard 6. The days when I used to sit next to you in primary school were a torture to me 'cos YOUR LAUGHTER WAS FUNNIER THAN ANY OTHER JOKES OUT THERE! I ALWAYS HAD STOMACHACHE JUST BECAUSE OF LAUGHING TOO MUCH WITH YOU! But you're a really awesome friend of mine :) . You're fun to talk to and most importantly, we're practically the same kind of people, haha. To be honest, you're like another version of Cheow :D . I can't literally tell you how much I appreciate our friendship by words. OUR FRIENDSHIP IS BEYOND BOUNDARIES! CHEEEEEEEERS!

Dear LowSoonYin, you're another extremely HYPER friend of mine :) . We are the UGLY BETTIES! Haha, that's a dumb name which I created after we had our braces on together. What should I say? YOU'RE SMART BUT YOU'LL NEVER ADMIT IT! Haha, just ADMIT IT. If you don't, PROVE IT TO US BY ACHIEVING TERRIBLE RESULTS :D ! I wish you luck on finding your true love. And, I can't wait to hang out with you without braces! We're so gonna look SMEXY! Hahahaha, just kiddin' :D .

Dear YapZhiWen, I just only realized that we don't even have a photo together, CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? Lol. You're the best brother, the best silent-listener, the best helper and the BEST CHOCOLATE COLLECTOR :D ! I used to rely on you a lot, LIKE SERIOUSLY A LOT. 'Cos you're always there for me come what may. You listen, when I'm down; You help, when I'm not capable of finishing my works; You give comments, that I love to read best. Why do you have to be so reliable? YOUR FAULT :P ! Haha, the days in Sri KL without you are superbly miserable 'cos no one will tell me THE LAMEST JOKES on earth. Who is YapZhiWen? HE'S THE LAMEST PERSON EVER, but me likey :) .

Dear LoongChangHwang, I guess you won't even want to read this because you will only read things in Chinese, but I'll still write. You're another awesome brother and also a very awesome person to play + chat with. I envy you because you're really good in Mandarin and many other subjects, WHICH DO NOT INVOLVE LANGUAGES OTHER THAN MANDARIN. Haha, I know how much effort you have put on improving English, but it takes time kay Loong? Dream high and I believe one day, you'll reach your aim to start your career in America :) .

There are still a lot of people who made my junior high school life unforgettable. They're HanYin, SamYee, SethFoo, ZhiQian, AlisonTan, BeatriceTan, HaoYing, AndrewOoi, YeowRong and MANY MANY MORE! It will take me AGES to finish this post. In short, I'll like to thank all of you for making my junior high school life a blast and I can't find any reasons to not love you all :) . You guys are the best and I definitely have no regrets getting to know all of you. I LOVE MY KUENCHENG FRIENDS!

A real friend is one who walks in

when the rest of the world walks out.

xoxo

:: POWER OF LOVE ::

2012-01-15T19:54:00.009+08:00

Hey! This is my first post in the year of 2012! Well, most bloggers will start their first post with how they celebrated their Christmas and New Year. But I'm currently lacking time, so I might just tell you about that later. Sighs, thinking about 2012 just reminds me that the earth is going to explode in no time. I don't wanna just end my life this way! It's tooooo miserable :( . Okay, let's not think about the melancholic side but think positively.

Yesterday was truly a busy day! Early in the morning, my mum fetched me to the dentist. My teeth are actually hurting a lot right now. It's so tightened up and I can feel that all the teeth are moving to a different position. This isn't my first time so I got used to it already. It gives a lot of pain after the appointments every single time. But after a few days, the pain will just fade away. Also, my braces are in coral colour, which is a very striking colour and I'm lovin' it. Initially, I was thinking of having blue, again. For your information, I've got braces in turquoise, sky blue, ocean blue, aqua and many other blues. So i guess it's time for me to change into a fresh colour. It isn't that bad, though.

After that, I had violin, piano and theory class continuously. Ohhhh I'm so glad I am able to sit for the last grade of violin in June! You won't believe this, I actually got stuck in grade 8 for 2 years. Normal people out there would take merely 1 year but ahem, I am unique in a kind of way, haha. Piano diploma class is a torture. My teacher got me this Hanon book and it's more on finger exercising. It's tough, dude. I would rather play a hundred pieces of waltzes by Chopin than playing these exercises every day. Sobs. No pain no gain. I shall just bear with all the torments, heh.

Then, I went for swimming lesson, ALONE. #foreveralone. Xiaoteng, Jiaying and my sister had menses TOGETHER. I do not know if this is a mere coincidence or a beautiful lie -.- . Good thing is that, I can finally swim breaststroke without any floaties!! #victory. I don't know why I'm so into swimming these days. Whenever I see water, I'll think of the pool. And whenever I think of the pool, I'll have the urge to swim :D . As you know, I don't exercise much, and swimming is considered as an extreme exercise since swimming virtually depends on the movement of our entire body.

Just now, the sisters and I baked chocolate cookies and they're simply delicious! And that's where my inspiration to blog about what my friends and I baked last month comes from. Jiaying and Xiaoteng came over after our swimming lesson last few weeks. We attempted to bake macaroons and our plan ended up pretty fine. The macaroons didn't taste that GOOD but they weren't really bad. Plus, it was my first attempt and I considered that as a success. We baked macaroons in lychee, banana and chocolate flavours, with nutella and peanut butter as the fillings. The macaroons were sort of out of the norm 'cos they were all out of shape. Some cracked but most of them were fine. We have already lessened the amount of sugar but my mum said that the macaroons were way too sweet.

Then, we baked cookies! Whenever we took out the tray of cookies from the oven, Jiaying would put it into the freezer (for less than 5 minutes) to make the cookies cooler. That was Jiaying's smart solution to cool down the cookies and there was one time when she literally put the tray in and has forgotten to take it out. At night, my dad screamed 'cos he was astonished to see a tray of cookies in the freezer -.- . Fortunately, they were still edible and surprisingly, they tasted really gooood. Haha, you should try that next time, peeps :) . Sighs, since school has officially restarted, I can't really find time to bake as my schedule is kind of packed up. Especially during the weekends, I have sooooo many classes. How sad :( .

During the holidays, I went to Suanne's house and slept over for 6 nights. Agatha, Suanne and I baked chocolate cookies with marshmallows. It was awesome I tell you! They tasted so heavenly I was munching on the cookies profusely I couldn't stop. Moreover, the heated-marshmallows were gooooood. They were crunchy and a little salty which totally made a perfect match! When we were doing our last tray, Suanne suggested to make a humongous heart-shaped cookie. I don't know why we ended up making something different. I made 2 cookies. One was a x'mas tree and another one was a scary smiley face. They tasted awesome even though the x'mas tree cookie I made looked like an ice-cream cone after being heated in the oven. Alright, I shall let the pictures speak now :D !

So, what about school? How's it? Everything's fine? Yeap, that's what most of my friends asked me recently. Sometimes, I just feel like screaming AHHHHHHH, CAN I JUST GO BACK AND REUNITE WITH ALL OF YOU??!! I didn't, of course. Instead, I told them that everything's fine but I just miss them a lot. As a matter of fact, I don't hate my new school nor do I hate the teachers and new friends there. They're good, really good. But, imagine, I studied in KC for three damn years and my friends there are practically precious beyond infinity. How can I not feel sad? Honestly, I didn't feel sad for leaving at all on the last day of school. In fact, I was feeling super hyped up to leave that darn school. But now, I only realized that, friends are currently the force to pull me back. I don't know. Maybe it's because I still haven't got used to the new surroundings. Or maybe, it's just 1 week of school and things might turn out better when time goes by. You ask me if I regret it or not, I'll elect to answer you, I don't know.

Friendship

is a single soul

dwelling in two bodies.

xoxo

:: LOSING MY HEARTBEAT ::

2011-12-21T12:27:00.014+08:00

Wasssssup readers? I'm here to update about my Singapore trip (reminds me that I haven't written anything about my Australia trip since last year -.-). Well, if I were to post every single photos here, everywhere I've been to and everything I've done, this post is gonna be endless. So yea, I'm gonna make it as short as possible. I might upload all the photos on Facebook. Here are just a quarter of all the photos I've taken there. First of all, what I want to say is... HECK, SINGAPORE HAS BEEN RAINING AND RAINING EVERY DAY, NO SUNNY DAY AT ALL! Yes, that's true. The rain just couldn't go away. I was so mad at the rain I wanted to get a jet and fly back to Malaysia. I hate the rain, I HATE THE RAIN!

Alright, I need to chill. Okay, we stayed at Hard Rock Hotel, a hotel which is located in Sentosa Island. There are 4 hotels located near Universal Studio, which are Hard Rock, Michael, Festive and Crawfords Tower. Crawfords Tower is only offered for those invited ones. You can't literally get a suite there by paying. You have to be invited, haha. Hard Rock Hotel was awesome. Our room was directly facing the swimming pool where you could enjoy the scenery at the balcony, very nice. The interior designs were attractive. There were a lot of posters of well-known celebrities like Michael Jackson, Elvis Presley, Rihanna, Alicia Keys, Black Eyed Peas, and even Justin Bieber (IKR?). There were also outfits of Eminem, Aaron Carter, Elton John and lots more! How can we not say it's cool? The outdoor swimming pool was simply perfect. While we were contentedly swimming around, the rain just came pouring down like cats and dogs. Urgh, see how potong steam it was?

Orchard Road was crowded as usual. And yes, we shopped, a lot. As in, A LOT! I almost got my legs broken. And I had serious muscle pain the next day. This is what we say, 'You shop, You drop!'. Plus, we went shopping in IMM Mall the day before too, haha. Orchard Road is definitely a must-shop place! The food in Takashimaya were delicious. The only thing I dislike was that there were too many people over there I almost lost breath! Not to forget, the collection of Rose-Chan Dolls right in front of the entrance of ION were so so adorable. They've got dolls designed from different countries. Malaysia's was in a baju kebaya, haha.

When we were killing time along Orchard Road, there was this group of teenagers with different instruments. They were distributing sheets to promote their percussion competition. They performed so great my body uncontrollably moved along their beat. Very impressive I'd say. The quote on the sheet goes like this: 'You don't have to play music with expensive instruments'. I seriously wanna join, but unfortunately, this activity is only available in Singapore D: . At night, there were lights everywhere. The x'mas deco in Orchard Road wasn't really nice though. The last few times I went to Singapore, there were lights almost everywhere in different colours. I can't actually describe the beauty during x'mas in Singapore last time by mere words. Gawsh, what has happened to Orchard Road? I miss the lights and all!

Universal Studios Singapore was cool and it's my 2nd trip to Universal Studio, haha. Sadly, the weather on that day sucked max. It rained, then it stopped. After a few minutes, it rained again, then it stopped, again. The cycle went on profusely. We didn't get to go to The Lost World. It's the number 1 place which I was looking forward for! Urgh, curse the weather in Singapore. Good thing was that we got to snap photos with Betty Boop (favourite of all time!), KungFu Panda, Woodpecker, Marilyn Monroe, and an unknown ghost who couldn't stop frightening me :D . We saw Shrek and Fiona, Frankenstein, but it was raining and those crazy people were queuing in the rain. As expected, the souvenirs in Universal Studios Store were pricey. A small little magnet without any unique designs costs around 20 ringgit msia -.- !

Sci-Fi city was cool and it's where Transformers is located at. Transformers has been promoting itself almost everywhere! On TV, in newspapers, on billboards, everywhere! And it's absolutely amazing! We queued up for 80 minutes but I definitely did not regret it. It's in 4D and the effects were too good to be true! You would actually feel that you could touch the robots, you would feel that you're really dropping down and smash to the ground dead from a 50-storey tall building, you would feel the heat when something exploded! It's with no doubt, a truly impressive and amazing one!

In Ancient Egypt, I felt like I was really in Egypt. We went to Revenge of the Mummy. Initially, we thought it's some kind of museum where you could witness how people in Egypt survived, and grab more knowledge on the history of mummies. When we were queuing, then only we found out that it's a roller coaster. There was this poster against the wall saying "WARNING: Revenge of the Mummy is a roller coaster which makes drastic changes of speed, going upwards, downwards and flips". Oh Shoot. Then Jane and mummy wanted to go to the exit soooo badly until someone who worked there told them the way to the exit. Revenge of the Mummy was so fun, haha. But it was a little bit too short. If you're going there, go and have a ride! You'll love it :D .

Far Far Away was fantastic. It was very fairytale-like and once you walked towards the castle, you would feel like you were a princess! The donkey show in Far Far Away was hilarious. The donkey could literally TALK to you! It's almost like the Stitch show in Hong Kong Disneyland. I like how the donkey asked us: "Hey boss, can I have noodles... (after a moment).. la? Is my Singlish okay?" The way he talked was already hilarious enough, then he started speaking in Singlish which totally made me laugh my ass off. HAHA. I Love Donkey. Shrek Movie in 4D was not bad too. They sprayed water on our face when the donkey sneezed, ewe. But it sure was a funny show. My mum loved it, lol. Enchanted roller coaster was too boring. Oh well, as stated, it's a junior roller coaster.

While we were halfway walking to Madagascar, we took a photo with Marilyn Monroe. She said: 'Say Diamond on the count of three'. And the friggin' photographer over there snapped the photo when I was saying DIA. I looked like a total retard -.- . Anyway, her voice was soooo sexy, like the woman in D&G perfume advertisement on TV, haha. #PS:*There's a photo of me in a raincoat!! :D

Okay, enough of Universal Studios Singapore.

Lake of Dreams show was boring. Nothing special. Lights, fountain and music. That's all. --Gawsh I'm so exhausted for typing on and on, recalling and recalling. Now let me end this quick and simple.-- Vivocity was cool. Coincidentally, there was a huge cruise right there. Oh and... A x'mas song was playing and the lyrics went like this "All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth, two front teeth", haha, cute huh? Alright, getting my PMR result tomorrow and I'm hell nervous now. Gotta listen to some songs to chill myself down, c'ya!

Worry about your character and not your reputation,

Because your character is who you are,

And your reputation is only what people think of you.

xoxo

:: TORN APART ::

2011-12-13T15:09:00.009+08:00

Hello readers! Hah, I still can't believe it's December already. Like what I usually see on facebook these days, "Time Flies". Yeap, time does fly, just like a blink of an eye. Sometimes, I would wonder, is there any invention that is able to stop the time? Well, who knows? You see, in movies with time machines, they can make the time rewind, and fast forward as well. But, human beings will not feel the change of time. So yea, even if the time has ever been changed in reality, we as human beings can't feel it too. In short, the invention of time machines isn't really illogical after all :D ! Haha, sorry for all the craps peeps. Now let's go to the main point.

Yesterday, my relatives from Penang came. They're currently in Genting, which is my dad's guess, haha. They arrived at 8.00am yesterday, when all of us were still sleeping. They rested for awhile, then they went to 1Utama. The family and I went downtown to KLCC after my mum had her hair-dye. KLCC's Christmas decorations were so-so. The only thing I like was the fake moving Santa Claus that turned round and round while waving his hand. Nothing much in KLCC. As usual, crowded, and year-end sales. Oh yea, not to forget, Charlie Brown Cafe is opening in KLCC!! You do not know how much I adore Snoopy and his friends. They're simply adorable :D !!

At around 7.30pm, we met up with them in Shah Alam I-city. We ate our dinner in a bistro right in front of the place where all the trees and stuffs with lights were placed at. The food there were bad. I ordered grilled chicken with mushroom sauce and it tasted like grilled chicken with raw mushroom. The other restaurants which could be found there were like KFC and some Malay restaurants. Thorough disappointment I'd say. We were all expecting for something like, a place which provides good restaurants and good environment.

After our dinner, we went around to take some pictures with all the lighted trees and sorts. Honestly, it's got nothing special there. You can actually plant some trees at your yard and light them up. It's just that, they have MORE trees, haha. The pictures do look pretty, but when you get there, you will surely feel disappointed. We actually felt cheated -.- . Oh well, what do you expect? This is Malaysia. When can we ever chase up to the level like in China??

Later, Jane and I went for Snowalk. The others were not interested, so only Jane and I went in. Okay, Snowalk wasn't that bad. In fact, I kinda like it! I mean, WE kinda like it. At first, I thought it would be a typical snowhouse like what you can get in Genting and The Mines. The small and boring snowhouse, remember? The snowhouse in I-city was surprisingly, pretty big and nice too. And it was superbly cold inside. We went in for less than 30 minutes 'cos we were not even in long pants! They had to make sure that the ice inside would not melt right? Okay students, Science now. Ice will only be formed under a temperature below zero degree celcius. Good thing was that Jane and I were wearing our shoes but not our sandals! Also, we were not allowed to bring the camera in, but think about it, WHO WILL ACTUALLY BOTHER, lol :D ? So we got to snap lots of photos in the snowhouse. Oh and, the winter jackets there stinked, ewe.

Sighs. Today is such a boring day. I seriously need something to keep me entertained. YiTeng is currently in China, Gillian is in Singapore and ZhiSan's going to Japan tomorrow. Gawsh, I can't wait for Friday to come so I can as well leave Malaysia to kill time, like finally. Christmas is around the corner. Which means, year 2011 is coming to an end, and soon, I'll be back to my school life. Lifeless huh? Oh well, Jane and I got our x'mas tree set up last week. Hope you'll like it :) . TVB again right now! Goodnight, sleep tight and sweet dreams.

Happiness

Is not something you postpone for the future;

It is something you design for the present.

xoxo

:: SHUT UP AND LET ME GO ::

2011-12-04T00:35:00.009+08:00

Goooooooood aftertoon earthlings! I've got so much to say I guess Imma just tell you a part of it. Gawsh I've been waiting for today to come so badly! Tonight, the annual TVB grand awards will be showing on channel WaLaiToi LIVE at 8.30pm! Too bad Sheren Tang did not act in any of the TVB dramas this year so she's not attending. If she does, I will definitely vote for her. For the best actress award, I voted for Myolie Wu, which is so not a good decision to do so. I dislike her BUT if you have ever watched her latest TVB drama, Curse of the Royal Harem, you'll think of hitting a vote for her too. For the best actor award, well, you know me ;) , I voted for Chilam, like duh :D . Haha. Remember, it's showing at 8.30pm on channel 311! Don't miss it!

Last Wednesday, I went to this Jazz Workshop in my music school. Jazz, is not something that everyone will be interested on. In fact, Jazz is more likely appreciated and truly loved by people who were born in the early 20th century. Like what my piano teacher said to me, "Not everyone can play jazz. Only people who were born to play it can play it with the jazzy swing feel". Yea, so I wasn't born to like or even play jazz. Hence, I was bored to hell with Jane over there. It was, boring, haha. The only thing I learned from that workshop is that classical musicians cannot accept the way jazz players perform. Their postures and everything are totally inappropriate. This is what the host told us.

Then on Thursday, I went for swimming lesson in Sun-U residence with Jane, JiaYing and her younger sister, XiaoTeng. I used to learn swimming with Suanne in KDE club when I was standard 2. You cannot believe it, Suanne and I were once the best students amongst all the young swimmers. Unfortunately after a few years, I didn't know how to swim, at all. So my mum, who is a very excellent swimmer, decided to put Jane and I into a swimming lesson. Good thing is that we go for lessons with JiaYing and her sister on Thursdays and Fridays! Our coach on our first day was a man. And and and, HE'S GOT SIX PACKS! And and and, HE'S GOT THE LOOK! Haha, okay stop it. So, the first thing Mr. Hawt (I'll just name him Mr. Hawt :D ) taught us was the right way to kick. Then, breathing. Later on, landing in the water. After that, swimming+breathing. It wasn't really tough for me since I already kind of knew it earlier. It was fun! Especially when both JiaYing and I couldn't stop gasping for air. Haha.

After we had our bath, we took the Sunway shuttlebus to Sunway Pyramid. We put our bag packs into the locker and then we had our lunch in a korean restaurant at Asian Avenue. The noodles I ordered were awesome. Spicey and VERY cheesy! XiaoTeng ordered korean pizza which was not bad too. JiaYing ordered something unknown (to me), haha. Then, off we went for Bimbo Shopping! XiaoTeng was soooo neglected, I'm so so sorry, haha. Just in case you don't know, everytime when JiaYing and I meet up, our shopping spree goes up to this level --> 101% :D . Also, I got Jane a geeky specs as her birthday present just like what she asked for from me. She could have asked for something BETTER -.- . Alright, more stories below!

On Friday, Jane and I were late for swimming lesson by 3 minutes. We continued practising the same thing we learned on Thursday. Then, the coach (not Mr. Hawt) said I was ready for the next step. She taught me Heart Style which was pretty fun :D . Haha. After the lesson, same, bath, then Sunway Pyramid. This time, XiaoTeng went loiter around with Jane so JiaYing and I could go for Bimbo Shopping as much as we could, haha. Oh yea, we bumped into one of my primary school classmates. I was in a shop with JiaYing. I heard someone calling me then when I turned around and looked at him, I turned away 'cos I thought he was calling someone else. Surprisingly, JiaYing went and say 'HI!!!!!' like they were really really close friends, so I thought he was her classmate or whatsoever. Then, JiaYing pulled him to me and he asked 'You don't recognize me?'. I kept thinking and thinking, twisting my brain then something popped out, he's KOK HOONG! A pretty close friend when I was standard 4! Haha. I still can't believe I couldn't recognize him. Firstly, he's grown taller (which is definitely a good thing). Secondly, he's got moustache and looks more manly already! So different. I wonder how much all the others have changed!

Sunway Pyramid is now decorated with Christmas trees, huts, candies, prezzies and sorts! Reminds me that our Christmas tree is not set up yet! Will set it up soon. Oh and, just in case you ask if I have a new ixus camera, hah no, that's Jane's. =skip= Ahh, 3 more days and we can swim again! I'm loving the pool already! Also, we've thought of some activities on this coming Friday! Can't wait! Alright then, stay tuned for my next entry! TVB mode-on right now! Haha. See 'ya :D !

We know we're limited,

But most of us don't realize that

sometimes,

We're able to push out our limitations.

xoxo

:: STAND BY ME ::

2011-11-27T15:42:00.008+08:00

Hey peeps! Today's such a rainy day. It's been raining since this morning. This kind of weather makes me feel hungry and want to sleep. So, what have you done so far? Me? TVB, TVB and MORE TVB. LOL. I'm currently loving Curse of the Royal Harem, Lives of Omission and When Heaven Burns. And also No Regrets which is showing on Channel WaLaiToi at 9.30pm every weekdays! It's the 2nd time I'm watching No Regrets but seriously, it just won't bore me, like FOREVER. It's so intense, so exciting, so mysterious! Now can you feel the aura of TVB dramas?? :D Oh yeah I'm a TVB freak. Just a small little reminder over here: go to http://www.tvb.com/ to vote for your favourite artistes and dramas!

I'm digging things for me to post on my blog from my folders in the laptop. Ah finally, TALENTIME! How can I forget about this? It sure is a long-time-ago thing but it still remains fresh in my mind. KC's talentime was held in August. I performed for 2 bands, which are Cynorinx and Zenith. Cynorinx consists of 5 members, who are Alison, Karmen, Silvia, Hoi Shan and yours truly :) whereas Zenith consists of 5 members as well, Han Yin, Hao Ying, Yi Teng, Zhuan Yuan and yours truly once again :D . I practised more with Cynorinx in school 'cos Zenith was able to practise together in a music studio named Icons at 1Puchong.

Early in the morning on our big day, I was informed that we were not allowed to use the school's drum set for the competition, unless we could get another drum set besides the school's. Gawsh, you do not know how pissed all of us were. zYuan was the drummer and I was sure she couldn't be any more piss than we were. Plus, we practised so many times we were so steady that not a single mistake could be heard. This is why I always say, we can't rely on the school too much. 'Cos when they say something, we're helpless and hopeless. We can't do anything to object 'cos it's the power we're saying. They have the rights, they have the power, we only have the voice to convince. Yeap that's all. So at that time, no matter how much we begged, it was still hopeless. Later, I went to the office to find Ms.Yong. Earlier, she promised me that she would lend me guitar society's amplifier, but when I was there to get it, she told me ANOTHER teacher said it belongs to the society, not for outsiders' competitions. I wanted to yell so badly. The flame in me was so furious it was burning me. I immediately went to find TzuKuang with zYuan, hoping that his amplifier was with him and he would lend us his. Fortunately, issue closed *yay*. Then during the 2nd recess while I was practising with Zenith , one of the guitar strings snapped! BOOM I wanted to smash the guitar but it was HanYin's. Gillian brought me to see TzuKuang, again, and ahh, he said he could lend us his guitar. 2nd issue closed.

Before school was dismissed, all participants were allowed to leave the class earlier so we could change into our outfits and make a perfectly thorough preparation. We were all anxious and nervous. In short, Cynorinx and Zenith both performed like our normal practices. *I seriously do not want to say a thing about our performance 'cos it's simply heartbreaking*. Although both the teams did not win, I was sure we had fun on the stage. Looking back at the moments we've gone through, the practices, the worries, the fun and everything, it couldn't be any more memorable than an award right? So to both Cynorinx and Zenith members, I'm really really thankful to all of you and I appreciate each and every seconds we had. I hope there's a chance for us to perform together again! Bring it on!

Oh and, I'm back from Penang *okay awkward *! What is Penang? A PLACE WITH AUTHENTIC WONDERS OF FOOOOOOD. Oh yeahh, so right ;) . Haha. Nothing much about Penang since it's like our second home, haha. Alrighty, I've gotta go out soon. *Juppie, if you're reading this, I wanna let you know how desperate I am for Thursdays and Fridays!* Okie readers, that's all for today! Toodles ;) .

I've hurt myself

By hurting you.

xoxo

:: DANCING QUEEN ::

2011-11-18T13:33:00.009+08:00

Boom Boom Pow I'm back! Sorry for not updating recently. I promise I'll update as frequent as possible because... SCHOOL HOLIDAYS JUST STARTED! No more school, no more homeworks, no more distractions from SCHOOL! Feelin' good eh? So, Monday was the last day of school. Took tons of crazy photos with friends in school and sorts. I'll update 'bout that later on. Gawsh I have sooooo much to update about, like school's talentime, junior graduation cremony, DOTS! Okay now, I'll tell you about the dramas I've been crazy over these days.

Firstly, it is -drum rolls- Forensic Heroes 3! Man, you DO NOT know how much I love Forensic Heroes 1 and 2! They're simply awesome. And I just love the way they investigate each and every cases despite how complicated it is to figure out about the truth. One thing is that I really miss Bobby Au Yeung a lot. He used to act in both Forensic Heores 1 and 2. Why WHY didn't he continue acting in the current series?? I'm not saying that Wayne Lai is not good or what, but Bobby Au Yeung is still more preferable D: . Plus, I dislike Kate Tsui, a lot. In short, 2 of the previous series are still better than the current one. I just finished watching episode 27! I have to wait for the next episode tomorrow. GRRRRRRR. Impatient. (4/5)

Next, it is Super Snoops! When I was watching the 2nd episode of this drama, I fell asleep. NO JOKE! I really fell asleep on the sofa. When that episode ended, I woke up and said (I was watching together with Jane): "I'm tired. Gotta sleep now". The next day, Jane wanted to continue watching 'cos she thinks it's hilarious but I didn't want to 'cos I supposed I would fall asleep again. At that time, I had no interest in watcing Super Snoops 'cos I normally judge those dramas which could make me sleep BORING. But then in school, my classmates kept telling me how exciting and funny the story is, I started to doubt my judgement. Hence, I continued watching with Jane at home and HECK, it's supercalifragilisticexpialidocious! One word, AWESHUM! Haha. I was laughin my arse off I couldn't stop. Trust me. Go and watch it. You'll think it's boring at first, but DON'T STOP WATCHING. You'll understand what I mean by then :) . *hahahahahahahahaha* (3.5/5)

Next, it is The Rippling Blossom! HOLEY SHIAAAT. This is my favourite TVB drama in year 2011! 'Cause my number 1 favourite actor is in it ----> CHILAM! Haha. I dislike Myolie Wu. But I have to admit that chilam and myolie are pretty sweet as couple in this drama. This drama has quite a lot of scenes in Hokkaido, Japan, 'cos the main theme of this drama is SUSHI! I'll give a rating of 4.5/5 (Tavia and Laughing Gor are really annoying in this drama, urghh) for this drama! Kudos for Chilam :DD !

Last but not least, GHETTO JUSTICE! Yeap, Myolie Wu again. The story is not bad but Myolie is definitely unsuitable to act as a professional lawyer. Some of my friends think so too. Plus, her superbly ridiculous attitude in this drama just pissed me off, a lot. I dislike Kevin Cheng too, but I will have to say that he deserves a loud applause, seriously. In this drama, he is a lawyer who doesn't work just to earn money. He helps anyone who is in trouble even if they can't afford to pay. He doesn't wear trench coat, tuxedo or any other formal outfits like what lawyers usually wear. He wears filthy dangling tee, ugly loose pants and a pair of shoes which looks like it has never been washed before. He doesn't shave, he doesn't really bathe. He talks like a typical gangster. The name, 'Ghetto Justice' just describes it all. Haha THUMBS-UP FOR KEVIN CHENG! (4.5/5)

Okay enough of TVB dramas :D . On the last day of school, jWen, zYuan, Wendy and I planned to come over to have some bakery fun. Too bad yTeng couldn't make it. After school on Monday, we went to IOI mall for movies. After that, we went to Popular bookshop to look for recipes and we found a recipe for chiffon cake. I quickly used my camera to take a snapshot of the recipes and sorts. After we had our dinner, we went to Jusco supermarket to buy the ingredients, like strawberry, kiwi and so forth. We were lacking some of the ingredients at that time 'cos some of them were out of stock. Hence, we decided to buy in a shop nearby the next morning. When decisions were made, zYuan came over to sleepover whereas jWen went to Wendy's place.

On Tuesday when zYuan and I were happily sleeping, jWen and Wendy appeared in my room. HAHA. They kept disturbing us and telling us to wake up as we had to walk to the shop early(it's quite far okay). So we walked to and fro. We bought flour, fine sugar, milk, eggs and so forth. After our lunch at home, we started baking. You cannot imagine how messed up was the kitchen weihh. The pan, bowls, EVERYTHING! HAHA. But most importantly, we had real fun together! After we decorated our cake, it looked like normal fruit chiffon cakes you can get in any bakery shops out there! HAHA (warning: you DO NOT want to taste how bad it is) :DD . Then, we ordered Domino's pizza for dinner at my place. While waiting, we played Cluedo and Monopoly Deal. Pictures are below! Enjoy!

So yea, UPSR result is out and Jane got 6A's! (I was thinking of congratulating her over here but she told me she only looks at the photos in my blog so yea, forget it) Mummy and Daddy were expecting something like 4 or 5A's. They were like happy humpty dumpty when they knew she got 6A's! So mummy's getting her Wii. Well honestly, I thought she would get straight A's, hahaha. Now it's MY turn to feel anxious 'cos PMR and JUEC results are coming out next month. Holey nerves :S . Pray for me? Oh well, here are some snapshots in my cousin sister's house last week. Her cute little baby girl is finally one-month old! Alright, I'm gonna watch Curse of the royal harem now. Toodles!

Thinking about ecstasy,

Thinking about misery,

The mind went upside down,

But you never changed.

xoxo

:: SOMEWHERE IN TIME ::

2011-10-28T21:23:00.006+08:00

Holey Craw JUEC is finally OVER!! Gawsh, we have been waiting for today for 3 years. I don't know how I actually got through all the suffer and misery, but people, IT'S OVER! As in, SERIOUSLY OVER! Ahhhhh~~ Okay, I'll be talking about the exam later. On Thursday, which is the day before our Maths exam, I went to Facebook and received a notification. The best notification ever you just cannot imagine how much of excitement and swag I had inside. Ruco Chan has finally accepted my friend request in Facebook! Boy you do not know how long I've been waiting, waiting and waiting! No, it is not like any other ordinary page in which you can simply stalk the page at any time you want by a mere click on the 'like' button. It is his official Facebook account! Okay, you must be curious. Who is Ruco Chan? Well, I haven't known or even noticed him until when I was deliriously chasing over the TVB drama, The Other Truth. He acted as a professional lawyer in it and he's one of the main characters. His handsome face just CAUGHT MY HEART. You may not think he's handsome (just like what my sister, dad and some of my friends think towards his look), BUT I LIKE HIS FACE (and his muscular body). So, can you imagine how hyper I went when I saw him accepting my request just few minutes ago when I was in Facebook? Rcuo and I, were using Facebook at the same time! Ahhh *faints*. You should google him 'cos you'll definitely be like me, being crazy over him. Plus, Sonnie has become one of his fans right after that drama, just like me!

Next, it is..... *drum rolls* the best pianist who has inspired me, a lot, MAKSIM MRVICA. I already knew him when I was standard 3. That was when PhaikYee, one of my best friends from primary school, introduced me one of Maksim's masterpiece named 'flight of the bumble bee'. It's not the original version. He does many remix for all the pieces from classical and romantic periods. Few days back, I don't know how I came across to his videos in youtube, so I clicked and clicked, watched and watched, listened and listened, I couldn't stop! They're simply addictive! You wouldn't understand/feel/know the addiction if you haven't listened to them. AND not to forget, his awesome muscles on his arms, his hot grin, his gothic outfit (some people actually commented on his outfit as 'messy' cos musicians are supposed to be FORMAL, like what you can normally see in orchestras, but c'mon, he's a hot goth, please don't make him change :D ), his always-changing hairstyle DOTS! Please please I demand you to listen to his songs. You'll feel the prestige of royalties, the power of music, and how his fingers can flow fluently across the keys. I favour almost all of his songs but I strongly recommend you to listen to songs which you guys will probably like (I assume some of you here dislike classical songs hey?) Chopin Revolutionary Etude, Exodus, Rhapsody and Cubana Cubana. After that, tell me how great he is :D. Remember, it is MAKSIM MRVICA ;P .

*Yes, I'm currently listening to his songs, -somewhere in time- is playing* Now what do you wanna know about JUEC? All of the subjects were so-so, BUT science (which consisted of SPM's Biology, Chemistry and Physics) was exceptional. Oh well, I'm not aiming an A for that subject, though. Others were so-so BUT I can't say they're easy-beasy 'cos they're definitely not. So, to all next year's JUEC candidates, you don't have to really pressure yourself too much for JUEC. As long as you always study for every single class tests, and study for everyone single unified school exams, you'll be capable to cope with everything by then. All you have to do at the nick of time is to flip through everything you have studied before and chill. *I sound so pro, yay*. This is just what I wanna say about my experience. I hope I can get at least 5A's for JUEC. Not gonna hope for something to good 'cos JUEC's always unexpected. In a bad way AND in a good way. Depends.

So, after our Maths exam, zYuan, yTeng, Gil, zSan, rChien, jWen, hYin, hYan and I went to Timesquare for Karaoke. We were soooooo hyper in the kbox that almost all of us have a little of sore throat right now. We didn't sing, we practically YELLED all the way. Songs which totally brought the atmosphere up were Party rock anthem, Nasi Lemak 2.0 Rasa sayang, Marry you DOTS. Especially when we were all singing Party rock anthem, all of us did the shuffle together. Then when the song ended, we were exhausted like dead fish. Imagine us yelling PLUS shuffling. Ain't it a good exercise for those who are on diet? LMAO.

Also, we FINAAAAALLY celebrated ZhiSan's birthday. It was a very very VERY belated birthday bash indeed. Her birthday is on the 22nd of Sept and we only got a chance to celebrate today 'cos we were having PMR trials, JUEC trials, PMR then JUEC all in a row! WE DIDN'T EVEN GET TO BREATHE! Thank God our plan went well. Thanks to all who were involved. Thanks for not leaking our plan. Thanks for co-operating. zYuan - the major mastermind for everything. Yours truly & Gillian - the ATM machines XD. We got her an i-don't-know-what DSLR filter and a 8' tiramsu cake. They are not cheap kay. Especially the CPL filter. It sure is a petite thingy but it costs a bomb. Haha. Anyhow, I'm glad ZhiSan likes it and she was really surprised! Hello, will you actually expect someone to celebrate with you when your birthday is already over for MORE THAN ONE MONTH? Sorry for the extreme delay, Cheow ;D !

I'm looking forward for next week! It's Kuen Cheng's ball games again! Lovin' it. It's what I always look forward every year. Hope JR3A gets to score a lot in every ball games! We must prove to those who think that A class students are nerds! All the best and WE CAN DO IT!! Alright, I guess that's all for today! I have SO SO SHOOOOOO many HK dramas on my list. Good night :) .

I can see everything from up here.

But,
where are you?

xoxo

:: ABDUCTION ::

2011-10-11T21:34:00.004+08:00

Holey! *touches heart* I survived! PMR is officially over, but the WORST has come... Oh well, I'm gonna be laid back in these few days, and then only continue fighting next week, which is the week right before JUEC. PMR wasn't THAT easy, wasn't THAT hard too. I have no confidence in achieving straight A's but God, spare me at least 6 A's please please please. I've tried my best and I've put my entire heart out for it. Arghh, I shan't mention things about PMR. It just makes my heart sink to the very bottom of my thoracic cavity (omg, science). So today's the last day of PMR (emphasis). After school, zSan, zYuan, jXi and I took the bus to Sunway Pyramid. Initially, we wanted to watch a movie but then it seemed like we were lacking time, so we practically walked around and just gossiped, gossiped and gossiped. Nothing much about today. Doing random stuff as usual like what I did before PMR. Sleep, eat, TV, eat, sleep, dots. We still have JUEC (which is so many times worse than PMR) so don't expect us to be extremely hyper over the end of PMR.

Oh yea I almost forgot! Good luck to those who are sitting for JUEC's art exam on this Friday! Haha I'm an art idiot. I might just get an extra B for art so it's ideal to drop art subject for JUEC. Once again, GOOD LUCK PEOPLE! Talking about art, our VERY VERY LAST art homework was PAPER CLAY PROJECT. I didn't know what to do 'cos what my art teacher wants are things which disgust people, or a better described way, traumatize people. Students from B class made stuff like eyeballs (which they really made blood vessel hanging behind the eyeballs), poop (looked totally real, looked stinky too), a dead frog with it's organs popping out (the best) etc. I'm not a disgusting person so I wouldn't make anything disgusting (like as if). I wanted to do the black and white keys of the piano, which is the EASIEST thing I could do, 'cos what I would have to do was to paint them B & W. BUT eventually, I thought of SNOWMAN, which would be MUCH EASIER than the keys. As you know, snowmen are round, so Jane and I simply made the paper clay round and adhere the head and body together, that's it! I feel successful.

Some of my friends made things which totally rocked. Like zSan's DSLR. You can literally change the lens of her DSLR that is made of paper clay. When the lens is being taken off, you would see a DSLR ring in it. This is what she says, the best method to ask someone to marry you. She's getting more creative than ever, lol. Next, it's Wendy's cursed doll. She said she didn't know why the head of the doll cracked but hellooo, the cracks would just make the doll look scarier. Plus, the doll's eyes were popping out and one of the eyes were slightly inclined (meaning not like the normal eyes we have). Thumbs-up for Wendy's cursed doll!

Oh yea, the founder of Apple, Steve Jobs, passed away. It was really abrupt, just like what happened on Michael Jackson and Elvis Presley. BUT, I saw people posting a picture on Facebook which I totally have to concur with. It has two pictures, Steve Jobs and a group of African victims who have been suffering in famine daily, weekly, annually, and finally, death. The caption under Steve Jobs was 'One dies, Million cry' whereas the caption under the victims was 'Million die, no one cries'. Very true indeed. This is what we call, injustice. Anyhow, rest in peace Mr. Steve Jobs. Thanks for inventing so many gadgets to keep us entertained. You're simply genius. The world loves you, we love you. I admire you 'cos you're a Buddhist, you're a vegetarian, and you're a great philosopher. Even my DAD admires you too. You know how rare it is for him to admire 'someone' AFTER that 'someone' dies?

Stay hungry, Stay foolish

- Steve Jobs

*Try to comprehend the definition in this quote,

it has an innate vast meaning.

xoxo

:: FUZZY BLUE LIGHTS ::

2011-09-02T18:22:00.008+08:00

It's... FRIDAY! Shouldn't be a thing to be happy about, though. I just came back from Sunway Pyramid. HoiShan, Beatrice, Li-Sha, Kenneth and JiaHao and I were there to celebrate Alison's 17th birthday in Shogun. The party was pretty fun. We joked around and HoiShan whispered to me 'People around are looking at us'. All of us said 'SO WHAT?'. Haha. We mixed a bowl of mushroom soup with wasabi, ginger, sushi, sashimi, tabasco, dot dot. Beatrice, Alison and Li-Sha actually tried a sip. Man, you wouldn't know how gross it was. They briskly drank tea to wash away the taste on their tongue. It was undoubtedly outrageous. Oh and, Beatrice and I made a name for the awesome mixture -- BUBU. Well, it's not just an ordinary BUBU. You have to pronounce it in an extremely seductive way :D .

Also, the present HoiShan and I gave her was a bottle of WINE with 5.5 of alcohol. I haven't gotten Alison anything so HoiShan said I could share the present with her. They forced me to drink a little bit. I kept refusing but in the end, I couldn't bear with their STRONG ENFORCEMENT. Hence, I drank it. Bitter, sparkling, burning. It totally sucked. Good thing was, Alison really loved the wine we got her. Oh well, as long as she's happy with it, I'm okay about it.

I've got to know new friends who are JiaHao and Kenneth. My impression towards JiaHao is that he is a quiet goody-goody. Haha. Kenneth? He's form 4 and he transferred to Sri Nobel. I named them 'the-hand-so-mehs'. That's the way I pronounced it. It's 'the handsomes' in precise. After the buffet, we wanted to watch The Smurfs but I'm not sure what happened, we eventually ended up in the arcades. It was my FIRST time stepping into this kind of place and I feel like EVERYONE there were drug addicts. No offence. The stench of the smoke was STRONG. I saw couples hugging here and there. But they had real fun there, so what I could do were to stand and watch.

Later, it was time for me to return. I seriously do not know how to describe all the fun we had through sheer words. Oh yeaaaah, WE'VE GOT SWAAAAG. Hah :D . To think about it, time passes really fast! It's Friday. Oh boy! IT'S FRIDAY! Which means, school is gonna reopen soon! VERY VERY SOON! I'm so not ready for school. Why? Not because exams are around the corner, not because I have to face the stupid school policies and homeworks, not because I have to wake up darn early every weekdays, BECAUSE I STILL HAVEN'T FINISHED WATCHING MY HONGKONG DRAMA!! :( Sobbies...

Okay. Gotta stop typing right now. I have yoga class later. Once again, Happy Birthday Alison! Wish you luck in future, in SPM and EVERY SINGLE THING you're gonna face! Thank you for giving me an opportunity to be a part of Cynorinx. Thank you for always being my HYPERISH partner during guitar class. You rule and good luck in college. I'm happy for you that you're leaving this damn school. BUAI ;) .

Keep discovering,

discover who are the ones

who are worth appreciated

with full cordiality.

xoxo

:: LOVE ME TENDER ::

2011-09-01T00:17:00.005+08:00

'Ello earthlings! Imma update about my awesome day I had yesterday. As told in my previous entry, I baked banana muffins with chocolate chips yesterday night. I didn't know how they would taste like, but they looked totally fine, so I supposed they would taste fine as well. Things went up side down. Early in the morning yesterday, woke up, dressed up, and had a muffin I baked as my breakfast. The first bite I had almost pulled out all my teeth -.- (my teeth are fragile kay? I have braces). It was hard enough to be a biscuit. It tasted pretty good, but it was just, TOO HARD FOR ME TO EVEN BITE! Assuming I might have unluckily taken the muffin which was less 'ordinary', I asked my gramma (who came along with us few days back) if it was okay and the first response she gave me was 'I can't imagine myself biting it again. Too sweet. Too hard. Do you really know how to bake?' BOOM That was just too straight. FYI, my gramma's an awesome cook. You can't expect her to favour something so dreadful. From all the commentaries I've got from the family and the maid, none was a compliment. Partially because it was too hard.

Later, Wendy arrived. I would like to thank her brother for fetching us to KLCC so obligingly (which I kinda felt sorry to him 'cos we virtually neglected him all the way). On the way to KLCC, Wendy and HanYin had a munch on my muffin. Astonishing enough, THEY LIKED IT! But still, they think it's too hard. In short, what I baked wasn't exactly muffins, but BISCUITS! Or COOKIES! The picture below is a random snapshot I took before placing them into the oven. See??? They looked fine right, right, right?

When we reached, we went to the bookfest which was held in the convention centre. It was crowded, as in seriously CROWWWWDED! I hardly had the chance to breathe. As you know, I don't go to bookfests. I hate being packed like sardines, I hate places with so many people. So, I was thinking to just, loiter around and see what interesting things or activities they had. THEN! I saw so many PROMOTIONS (no, they're not only 20% or 50%), I simply took a basket from the entrance and off I went with my blink blink eyes. I saw books which previously cost RM100+ went down all the way to RM16.90! Hence, I bought two books which obviously, I don't even think I can finish reading. But I can feel the feeling of being successful inside! I don't read novels nor do I buy any books. I always prefer to watch and watch. Read? No way. It's just, rare, SO SO RARE. HanYin and JiaWen couldn't believe I actually bought 2 books from the bookfest (I know 2 isn't a large number for you. BUT TO ME, IT IS!). Haha, let's see if I will literally read them one day. Yea, LET'S WAIT, AND SEE :D .

RueChien wasn't there yet. It was lunch time already. We were planning for a picnic, but the garden was too crowded. There were Malays everywhere. No empty spaces at all. So, we decided to eat the food we prepared earlier in a food court. While we were happily eating, RueChien reached. Her awesome pawsome striking pair of blue shoes from Reebook caught our eyes. Haha. You can see it from one of the pictures below. I practically had to force them to finish up my muffins. I wanna bring home an empty tupperware to show the family that my muffins weren't that dreadful LOL. Then, we went for the movie -- Final Destination 5. God, I seriously do not want to recall anything about that eerie movie. I watched Final Destination 2 and 3 before. Yeap, they totally gave me goosebumps. BUT THE FIFTH ONE. Man, the way they died was just, NAUSEATING. I'm sorry but I'm so not telling you anything about this creepy movie. Thank god we didn't watch it in 3D.

After the movie, HanYin, Wendy and Shuqi went back home. The remaining 3 of us went to the highest floor to search for restaurants for our dinner. We had our dinner at an i-forgot-the-name Chinese restaurant. The food was nice. We spent our time gossiping and reminiscing our primary school moments. After our dinner, we had nothing to do (we were actually waiting for the arrival of your majesty, miss cheow, but she was still stuck on top of Genting Highlands -.-), so we went to the cinema, again. Haha. Wanted to watch Cars 2. In the end, we decided to watch Glee Concert Movie 3D. It was awesome. I have to give it a high thumbs-up. I'm not a Gleek. I skipped lotsa episodes. BUT THEIR SONGS ARE SO IRRESISTIBLE YOU JUST WANT TO KEEP ON LISTENING!

After the movie, we went to Starbucks and had 'supper'. We ordered 2 slices of cakes and 2 frappuccinos. After that, I received a phone call from ZhiSan's mum. Then only we knew she had been waiting for us in the convention centre for 1 hour. We quickly told the waitress to pack our food up and ran to the convention center. First of all, we did call her sister, BUT we couldn't reach her, so we didn't know she didn't follow. Secondly, we merely had her sister's number. Hence, we couldn't contact anyone else. Thirdly, ZhiSan's phone merely had RueChien's number and by the time her mum wanted to find us, RueChien's phone was out of battery. You get the picture of the situation? Fortunately, ZhiSan remembered my house number. Her mum called my dad and got my number. Eventually, they contacted us. We felt the guilt, STRONG GUILT. Imagine. They waited for us for 1 hour and her mum had to meet someone. So, they were actually in a rush. MAN, WE'RE SO SO SO SORRY.

I think, it is time for me to learn how to not blog with so many meaningless points. It's not like somebody will actually read it -.- . What's the use of typing on and on, and on? Arghhhh... See? I'm typing meaningless stuffs again. I needa stop. In conclusion, my day was awesome. 2 movies on a day, 2 books I've got from the bookfest (GAWSH I FEEL GOOD). GOODNIGHT. I'm hungrehh.

It is through memory

that we hold on

to those we love.

xoxo

:: REFLECTION ::

2011-08-30T20:02:00.005+08:00

Good evening readers! I'm back from daddy's hometown. Was supposed to go to Thailand with Daddy and Mummy but heck, my passport friggin' expired at the friggin' wrong time. So, I was in boredom to the max. I brought more than 10 JUEC textbooks there but as expected, I didn't even touch any of them at all, even a tiny little finger tip. Anyway, I don't plan to study anything in this holiday, so well, it doesn't really matter. Okay, what was I saying? Boredom. Fortunately, the TV was showing shows which have totally entertained me. First of all, it was The Glee Project. It is a project to choose a group of Glee members from the vast number of participants. They would test them on dancing, singing, duets, acting and so forth. The participants get eliminated one by one in each episode. You should go look for it or watch it on every Monday to Wednesday at 8.55pm (if I'm not mistaken) on Star World. Next, it was Masterchef Australia. I was drooling all over the place, staring at their mouthwatering food. How on earth could they bake/cook such creative food when they only had ingredients? All they could do was to THINK and THINK with their maximum creativity strategy. So yea, these two TV shows were what I was chasing over the past few days. Boring? No, they just totally ruled :) !

So, tomorrow, I'm going to KLCC with JiaWen, RueChien and ZhiSan. We're gonna have an extreme stress-release-day. Why? I'll post about everything tomorrow. Anyway, I just finished baking banana muffins with chocolate chips (the fragrance is with no doubt, irresistible). The chocolate chips aren't visible already. They're all melted by the oven. Awhhh, too bad. At first, I was thinking that my muffins wouldn't look that plain 'cos the chocolate chips could be the decorations. In the end, they all MELTED. Heart-sunk.... Hopefully, tomorrow will be a great day (oh well, I already received a phone call from someone who has TOTALLY RUINED my mood for tomorrow's outing, BUT let me tell YOU something, YOU have to learn how to stick with the plans before even promising. LEARN and THINK, before even taking any actions. I'm telling you this 'cos I've been through SO MANY troubles just because YOU always promise, before thinking. YOU GET ME, or not? End).

I'll be updating about the school stuffs as told in my previous post next time. It's gonna be a long LONG post. When I say long, IT'S REALLY LONG (as you can see, all my entries are long, but to me, they're just normal). Hmmm, about my holiday. Nothing much. Too much of ice-cream in my tummy. If you know me well, I don't eat/drink cold food/beverages. It's not like I'm heading to the healthy lifestyle, but I do have some health problems. I stopped eating/drinking any cold stuffs since standard 6. But in these 3 days, I ate 2 scoops of ice-cream in two days. It might be normal to you, BUT TO ME, it's quite traumatizing. Heh. Alright, the photos are below! Scroll down. Scrrrrrrrrrroll!

On Saturday, the family and I went for Karaoke. Again? Yes, again. Nothing much to say about the Karaoke session. I'm downloading a HongKong drama called The Other Truth. They're loading too slow, just TOO SLOW. I'm getting more impatient right now. Curse PPS and PPTV. Their HongKong dramas are lost! And so, I believe in miracles. Their entire list of HongKong dramas could literally go POOOOOOF and tadaa, lost, or much rather, disappeared. That's all for today. I might be updating for tomorrow IF I have time 'cos I'm gonna reach home at 10, or maybe later. So, NITEY PEEPS :) !

The moment I saw you cry,

Was the moment we said goodbye.

xoxo

:: STICK WITH YOU ::

2011-08-24T17:21:00.008+08:00

Stop asking me for an update! I already informed you all that I will not update so frequently from August, didn't I? Hah, just kiddin'. PMR trial exam is officially over! My friends from government school are asking me the same question 'Why ended? One more day left'. Yo dudes and dudettes, I study in a stupid independent school. We don't use government PMR trial papers nor do we follow their timetable. In short, we're REALLY 'independent'. Haha, like as if I am -.- . So, what about PMR trial exam? It was pretty tough for me. BM (1) was terrible, Sejarah and Geography were mad crazy, dot dot. I seriously don't feel like going to school tomorrow. I'm still unprepared to face my terrible results D: .

I have so so so much to tell I don't know where to start. I'll be continuing this post on the weekend. Hmm... where shall I start? I had my piano practical and theory exams few weeks back. Piano practical exam was held in Damansara's Hilton Hotel. Normally it would be in Grand Blue Wave. Damansara's Hilton sucks. It's located in the center of town. Every highways, fly-over, just, whatever roads which could be seen, were congested. Don't ever get yourself there 'else you would be stuck there for life. That stupid location ALMOST made me late. I was so panicky I kept messaging Teacher Angeline. Hah, she was so worried I would panicked too much and couldn't calm myself down for exam. She knew I could make it on time. Well, I ALMOST couldn't make it. My dad briskly left me, mum and Jane in front of the hotel. We wanted to take the elevator but there were only 2 friggin' elevators which were still stuck ON TOP, so we decided to use the staircase. Then, we went to the wrong venue. Staircase again. Eventually when I reached, they called my name and it was my turn already. First of all, all the hastes were worth it. Why? Because Mr. Jonathan the cellist looked so handsome I just couldn't stop staring at him. No, I AM NOT exaggerating. All my friends see eye-to-eye with me. And from this, we concluded that after so many years of classes and efforts we've put, all is worth it 'cos for our very last grade, we got to have such a good-looking examiner! The exam was kinda terrible. Especially when it came to the aural singing section, I was ogling at him and I forgot to listen to what he was playing. Hence, I sang things I created -.- . So sweat right? What to do? Blame on his awesome face hahaha. And and, he was being very very nice okay? He said 'Thanks for playing for me. I had a great time listening. Have a good day! Goodbye!'. Seriously, if I were given a choice, I would tell him 'LET ME STAY'. For the past few years, 7 years in precise, including my violin practical exams' examiners, most of them were old, bald and fat. This time, IT'S DIFFERENT! Oh Jonathan, when can I ever meet you again????

I have to stop talking about Jonathan. Okay. Theory exam was holey shytie terrible. I was deliriously staring at questions 1 to 5. Blank. Yes, blank. It was amazingly/surprisingly tougher than our trial exam. Peeps, I only got 69 for my trials. 66 is the passing mark. I'm dead. No, you need not comfort me 'cos I'm prepared for this. No matter what, I WILL NOT resit my grade 7. If I must, I'll just stop theory. Theory sucks ever since I started grade 6. It's such a big leap between grade 5 and 6. Grade 7 isn't hard honestly. The hard part is that we have to compose things here and there, in the mean time, compromising with another instrument. Oh yea, I've forgotten to mention that the exam was held in SMK Batu 14. Hah the worst school ever. I can't imagine students studying there without getting pissed off with the surroundings. #1, cleanliness is given a mark of 5% ; #2, facilities are 'beautifully' vandalized ; #3, their doors didn't seem to be working anyway, dot dot. One word, indescribable.

Oh by the way, I'm taking piano diplomas after JUEC exam. I don't know what force pulled me back. I did think of taking diplomas previously but that was trillion years back thing. Somehow I feel very very enthusiastic in continuing. I feel that life without piano classes is empty, like Macbeth's (haha, too much of literature). But the thing is, diplomas aren't easy you know? I will have to learn all kinds of vital techniques. I still haven't thoroughly mustered the basics, oh no. The grip, the body movement, dot dot. It somehow sounds intriguing for me. All I need is ample time to spend on the piano. Some people may be thinking, why do I elect to continue for my ambition has NOTHING to do with music? Well, music is apart of my life. I'll feel very empty without music. Every day I would at least touch the guitar or piano. Violin? Sorry, it's entirely ignored at a corner haha.

Also, I left FortePiano due to some .... parental issues. I didn't want to of course. My friends in theory class are not very close with me but we could be very very hyper in class teacher find us uncontrollable. When teacher quoted 'We work as a group. Nobody will be left behind. We pass together. We excel together'. Man, you don't know how much of PAIN and MISERY I was enduring inside. I almost burst into tears but I kept a smile hanging upon my face. We're like a family. You think I can leave without even feeling miserable? Leaving piano practical class was WORSE. Teacher Angeline taught me for 10 years. No joke, T-E-N years. I wanted to get her a gift to convey my gratitude towards her obligation to teach me with such patience and interesting ways, but I didn't have time to get it before our last class. Holey, depression now. I'll be continuing in my violin academy, Pastorale, which is quite a well-known music academy. Hopefully my new teacher, Ms. Thean, would bear with my horrible flattened-fingers when playing the piano.

Ahhhhh... I have too much to talk about! KC's Open Day, KC Talent Time, jamming moments etc. Stay tuned for these. I'm gonna talk about The Sleepover :D . After KC's Open Day, The Zenith (a band we formed, consists of 5 members who are Me, zYuan, yteng, hYing and hYin) went jamming in the Icons Studio. I'll talk more about this in my next update. After our practice, yTeng and zYuan came over and sleptover. We were planning to sleep at 5. But our eye lids were kissing. We were totally weared out 'cos of Open Day. We were stalking almost EVERYONE we know in my room. Gossips and all sorts! Hah awesome. We woke up at 10 in the morning the next day. Previously, zYuan suggested waking up at 8 and jog in the park. Epic failed, as expected. Gawsh, I still can't believe 3 of us could literally sleep on my only-queen-sized bed. We insisted sleeping together even though my maid already prepared everything for them in the guest room. I've read an article saying that if you have ever slept with you friends on a same bed, it can be proven that you are very very close with them. So right :D ! Okay, after lunch, we went to the park. We decided to go to the park at the back 'cos it's much closer compared to the park in front. We hyped too much, like totaaaaaaaally. Snap Snap! Photos are below! I have nothing much to say. 'Cos everything went like SWAAAAAG, HYPERRRRRR, BOOM BOOM POWWWWWW. This it it ;) .

I wanna hold you 'till I die,

'Till the fear in me

Subsides.

xoxo

:: SKYSCRAPER ::

2011-07-22T16:51:00.011+08:00

Good evening peeps! Have been waiting for this day to update my blog. I can't believe I actually survived. I thought I would have died in this week. I was super busy I almost lost breath. Was busy with my class tests, open day guitar performance and talentime band practices, and all the up coming exams which are piano practical and theory exams. Phew... Such a splendid and eventful week! Oh and, Kuen Cheng's open day will be on the 7th of August. Feel free to come ;) ! It's a Sunday. Shocking enough, attendance is obligatory. BUT, we have holiday on Monday! I feel awesome.

So, I went to Midvalley & The Gardens with Yi Teng, Yi Ling, Shu Yi, Hao Ying, Zhi Wen, Bing Sheng and Seth on last Sunday. Early in the morning at 9 sharp, I woke up and dressed up, got ready for my piano trial exam in the music academy. Didn't practise much because I've totally forgotten about it the day before. Had porridge for breakfast and practised my exam pieces for a while. Didn't know I would feel that nervous, I felt like butterflies were flying rapidly in my stomach. Reached the academy at around 10 and waited in the waiting room. I was practising scales on my book. Then, when the student before my turn came out, I walked in and greeted my teacher 'Good morning, madam'. Yes, it was awkward, calling my teacher a madam haha. I started off with my scales, then pieces, sight-reading, at last, aural. I made a slight slip in my baroque exam piece. I think I've started the piece in a wrong tempo as my fingers were uncontrollably flying across the keys in the middle where I didn't have any rests to stop at. Aural was horrible. I forgot all the chords and cadences I memorised early in the morning. Urgh, I knew they just couldn't get into my mind. To my astonishment, I passed the trial with 117. Ahh, 3 more marks to merit! 2 more classes of piano left. I don't wanna continue for diplomas, neither do I wanna stop. I'm in a terrible dilemma...

After the trial, my mum fetched me to the bus stop in front of IOI mall. Yi Teng and I took the bus together to Midvalley. She accidentally wore her slippers 'cos she was hastily running out from her house. Typical 'Cassandra' (yeeee, she's so gonna smack me when she sees this :D). We collected our tickets in The Gardens signature GSC. We wanted to book tickets for Midvalley but then the stupid website just couldn't function properly it kept showing us the invalid sign. Eventually, when I used my dad's credit card to book for The Gardens, it worked. A premier ticket cost us 24 bucks. Which is twice of the usual price, dang. Later, we met up with Zhi Wen and Seth in MPH. God blessed us, we bumped into Teik Yi! Her mum allowed her to come with us as I booked 2 extra movie tickets. After that, Yi Ling and Shu Yi reached.

My stomach was growling, so we went to Paddington House of Pancakes for lunch. I ordered Omelette-wrapped salad. It wasn't that bad but the portion was too big for me. Seth and Zhi Wen ordered two plates of pancakes each. 'OMG you ordered another plate?' 'Why not? It's GOOOOOOOD' haha. Yi Teng and I sneaked to Lavender bakery and bought Seth a Mango Cheese cake for his birthday. FYI, his birthday is on the 1st of August. Our outing was initially set on the 31st of July which we could celebrate his birthday together. Well, since we have thought about celebrating his birthday, celebrating his birthday way earlier wasn't that bad too :) . He went so speechless when the waiter served us the cake.

After our lunch, we met up with Bing Sheng who got kind of lost in the centre court, lol. We headed to the cinema and got ready for HARRY POTTER & THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 2! I was already looking forward to watching the very last part since I watched the 1st part in Australia with my sister. I would have to scream out loud that HARRY POTTER SERIES IS THE BEST SERIES EVER AND I'M LOVIN' IT! I can vividly remember the 1st time I watched Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone when I was merely 5. 10 years is definitely a long route. Thinking about how Harry, Ron and Hermione knew each other, thinking about how their friendship became better than best, thinking about how they almost died upon Voldemort's spells, I couldn't believe the ending where they waved their hands to their children at the station, with wrinkled visage, will never be continued. I used to be always looking forward to the next part... It all ended and I distinctly remember the day it all began. I'm feeling a little nostalgic right now, sobs. Harry Potter, is not just a name, it's more than that, more than what you can ever imagine. JK Rowling is goddess, prodigy. Oh and, this might sound like I have a bias against these 2 series, but most of US agree with this statement: NEVER compare Harry Potter series with Twilight saga. NEVERRRR! End :) .

After the movie, the family reached. We had dinner at Kita no Zen. Shopped in Isetan and finally, home. Haven't done any of my homeworks, but I was too exhausted to even think, so I slept after bath. It sure was a fun day. Omg, I realize I've been typing on and on it just wouldn't end. Seriously, I have to end now, haha. Yoga class later. Have to study French, Italian and German terms now. I don't wanna fail my theory trial exam :( . Bless me?

When you see my boy

Just tell him I miss his smile

Tell him I'm counting the minutes

Gonna see him in a little while

xoxo

:: JUST SO YOU KNOW ::

2011-07-13T20:53:00.009+08:00

Bonjour everyone! Here to update! I'm seizing every second of my leisure time to think about what I should write about for my next update as I will not be updating so frequently when the time comes to the lane of hell, August. Right, I'll be sitting for two trials continuously then straight to the actuals. Trust me, you'll miss my updates from the month of August onwards! Heh.

My oral group was chosen to be assessed by Mr. Daljit. I wrote the oral script all over again 'cos our original oral script was lost. Well, even if it wasn't lost, I would still elect to write a fresh one since the original one was so lame nobody could actually comprehend what we were trying to say. Hence, I wrote an oral script about 'Harry Potter & the Peculiar Wand'. Everyone who read it gave me the same response: "LAME". I have to agree with them. Haha. So, during the 2nd recess on last Thursday, we rehearsed once outside our classroom before heading to the library to be officially assessed. We were enormously nervous our legs couldn't stop being wobbly. When we stepped into the library, there Mr. Daljit was sitting at a corner, waiting for us. Holey shyt, my heart pounded real rapidly I felt sick, probably almost to puking. Oh FYI, Mr. Daljit is the head of English department. According to some of my friends, he's the most strict English teacher in our school. How can you tell me not to feel scared? We started our dialogue. After that, we were asked to answer a few of his questions. To sum it up, it wasn't that scary after all. I've got 13 marks over 15, which I'm already pretty satisfied with it. Also, Mr. Daljit was acting quite friendly to us on that day. It may be one of his innate good sides!

Computed my average mark for this term's school exam. Improved. So what? It's considered the almost-lowest average mark in my class. Some people may tell me 'Don't compare yourself with others. Your friends in your class are psychos'. No people, I am NOT comparing my results with others. I'm competing with myself. I'm challenging myself, giving a target so that I would be more motivated to study hard to reach my goals. I failed. Do you know how it feels to have the kind of feeling, feeling so devastated like an unenthusiastic berserk girl. Sometimes, I feel like putting myself into a campaign to get rid of my hassle and problems. This is it. I, will just face the fact that I may not be the best, but in my parents' eyes, I am the best for I've done my best. URGH This is just such an absurd consolation to myself! The agony and exasperation deeply in my soul is so intangible it's giving me too much of torments. Save me :( .

On Sunday, we went to Uncle Andrew's birthday dinner. It was supposed to be on Saturday but heck, there were so many Bersih rallies all over Kuala Lumpur for protestations, causing so many of road-blocks. Plus, the restaurant is nearby KLCC. How could we manage to bring ourselves there? Bloggers are all talking about Bersih. No worries. I'm so not talking about that. I'm getting bored of it already. Let's just pray that Malaysia will survive, hehe. The dinner was normal as usual. Aunty Jenny's cakes never fail to be complimented. Oh yea, I'll be taking cookery course near my house after JUEC. Boy I just can't wait! Down there, you'll see a picture of me with a pair of sheer grey eyes. When you simply glance across it, you'll actually have the first thought that I might be wearing grey-coloured lens. But when you really look into it, you'll see a person who looks like a blind person with uncoloured eyeballs. Go and check it out ;) . Pictures wholly belong to Aunty Ruth. Enjoy!

I was rushing with my art homework few hours back. Came back home from school and daddy fetched me to a bookshop nearby to buy some stuffs for my art homework. Students who are not taking for the art exam in JUEC were given a homework to make a card. I found some decorations which are opportune to the idea I've thought last night (from the net precisely). Eventually, after some help from Jane, and so many hours of cutting and adhering, I made a friendship card. It wasn't that bad. In fact, I kind of like it. Haha. Pictures are below. You'll see a picture of a piece of paper. It's a shot of the paper I used for the card. It has many hearts on it, yay!

I used to love making cards. Anything to do with art and crafts was my cup of tea. I lost interest suddenly I downgrade myself a lot. Anyhow, I'm still glad I didn't screw up my homework, though. You may not like it BUT I LIKE IT. Probably mainly because it's partially covered up with polka dots! It's 10pm already. Wanted to study a little bit of Science. D: Brain-resting. Goodnight readers :) . I'll update on Sunday if I have time. TTFN!

The flimsiest obstacle in life

Gives your life

The aura of ecstasy and satisfaction.

xoxo

:: FLY EMIRATES ::

2011-07-09T20:47:00.005+08:00

Exasperated,

I know, I never promised it would be until my death,

But sometimes to go on I can see just a way,

Breakin something on your head,

So maybe you would be able to keep silence at least a minute of your day.

xoxo

:: STOP AND STARE ::

2011-07-05T19:30:00.010+08:00

Happy Tuesday peeps! Been through quite a hard time last week. Took back all the exam papers and none of them literally reached my heart's content. I don't know. I tried so hard, and yes, I tried the hardest for this time including the exams when I was Junior 1 and 2. I studied so much I just couldn't find a better way to improve. Well, there is a slight improvement, but the ones which dropped have dropped drastically. I kept whispering to myself "Emily, your hardwork will be made up for all the discomforts". Everything ended up like a blank piece of paper. You wouldn't want to imagine how much the wounds on my maimed fragile heart have doubled and trebled. I'm yearning for a place which is just a ticket to me. A place with no worries but glee beyond boundaries.

On Saturday which is within the exam weeks, I went to my cousin brother's wedding lunch. I didn't want to go 'cos I had so many subjects untouched, like Geography and Sejarah. But it was something like my cousin brother's once-in-a-lifetime thing, so I went. Plus, he stays in Singapore and I rarely get to see him here. I brought some books and studied a few pages. was sort of distracted by my cousin sister as she couldn't stop annoying me. Also, some of my relatives who sat pretty far away from my seat asked my mum why didn't I lift up my head but kept looking downwards. They didn't know there were books on my lap. They thought I was moody or sorts. LOL. Then after the wedding lunch, they came and coax me that learning how to chill is even important than studying so hardly. That I have to agree with them. I was real nerdy there. Some of the strangers looked at me with the 'omg that girl is peculiar' eye contacts. Wanted to stop studying but I really had no ample time. The spiritual enforcement, yes it was.

To reflect on it, the wedding lunch wasn't that bad. The food was okay. Nothing special. But I got to meet my relatives who I've met when I was merely 3 from America. As usual, my cousin sister (shuni) sang on the stage with my another cousin sister who we call her the secretary of ShuNi. Their singing can damage my eardrums man. Sorry to insult, but they insisted singing songs which were totally out of their voice range. Nothing much about the wedding lunch. Recalling it just makes me blame on it for occupying so much of my revision time hah. Photos speak it all. Enjoy!

On the last day of exams, me, yTeng, zSan and zYuan headed to Sunway Pyramid right after the KH paper. Gillian didn't get to go 'cos her mum sort of grounded her. She'll be only freed off after our JUEC exam, which is gonna be a long long time. I know I'll be very disrespectful to her mum if I backstab her here but I still wanna say things about her. Firstly, does she know what is the exact definition of teenagers? Teenagers are meant to be given an appropriate life of a teenager, we call it a teenage life. A teenage life consists of so many varieties like playing truant every day with bad juveniles OR viewing the situation with positive perspectives, studying and enjoying life with friends. Does she think that her very own daughter should be stated in the group of playing truant every day, no? Her daughter needs a life; deserves a life; wants a life. She thinks that life without outings and conducive rules are what a teenager needs to have a brighter future. Does she think so this way. Then she's so wrong. She wants her daughter to quit athletics when she already knew very well that she has the talent and she performed so well showing such motivated aptitude. Please, as a friend, I don't care whether you're gonna scream at her for having a friend LIKE ME, but I would like to cordially tell you that, loving a child, is not like this. Give her, a LIFE. End.

Must be bored with all the craps and blabbering, but I myself did enjoy the typing haha. Okay. We wanted to watch a HongKong comedy but ended up watching another comedy about the racism between different religions. Although there were so many obscene scenes and so many swear words used, we learned quite a few facts regarding Jews and Islams from the movie. Oh yea, I forgot to mention about the name of the movie haha. It's 'Infidel'. It's a so-so movie. Can't say it's good, can't say it's bad too. Maybe a rating of 3/5 will do. Before the movie, we had lunch in a ramen restaurant. Was chatting and gossiping. Had a real fun time with them. Okay, it's turn for the pictures to show off!

Wanted to mention about another very traumatic thing I knew few days back. Seems like I'm lack of time 'cos I have some stuffs for me to finish up right now. I shall talk about it the next time I update hey? Gonna get back my Biology paper and English essay tomorrow. Firstly, teacher said the points in my essay which should be relevant to the importance of saving the earth are kind of, hidden in the mist. Meaning the points are not written clear enough. To exaggerate it, I consider my essay out of topic even though it's not. Also, teacher said my summary is lacking one more point because I joined two points in a sentence. In short, I flunked my essay paper. Biology. One word and you can get the picture: FAILED. Okay, goodnight.

I was waiting for you

Outside a dilapidated empty house

Located in an unknown suburb.

You never knew

How picturesque your back is to me

How much I wanna make a difference.

I know I'm gonna get through,

Albeit rather tough.

Just 'cos you would be there.

But you weren't.

Why,

Why didn't you turn back?

xoxo

:: UNFAITHFUL ::

2011-06-24T22:41:00.009+08:00

Good day earthlings! I'm darn free now 'cos exam is officially over! *rawr* Today's the last day of exam but I'm not as happy as expected earlier, though. We will have to sit for a few more trials soon and then only PMR and JUEC. Life's like this, so eventful yet feeling so empty. What about the exam? It was, not that good... but better than the previous one. I've tried my very utmost already. It's the maximum of what I could do. I couldn't do anything more than that. So I would like to say I'm pretty satisfied with my performance for this exam even though I sort of flunked Physics and Biology. Let's not talk about the exam hey?

Let's talk about the week before school reopened. I received an email from the Singapore Ministry of Education. Yeap, I've been shortlisted for the ASEAN scholarship exam on general ability, maths and english tests in Garden International. I didn't bother much 'cos I wasn't even thinking of heading to Singapore anyway. Dad knew and he kept encouraging me to give it a go, but I was heck lazy 'cos if I were to go, I had to wake up at 6.30am. Plus, the tests and all the activities were separated into two days, which were a Saturday and a Sunday. After a few days, I received an airmal about the scholarship thingy again. Didn't bother too. Gillian was like my dad. Both of them kept telling me to go, but I insisted staying at home. On Saturday, Gillian messaged me after the tests and said only 6 students were chosen from each school. Blimey! SIX students! I didn't know it was so limited! Only Me, Gillian, Seth, Beng, MunHeen and JiaJie got shortlisted! I was the only one who didn't sit for the tests. People who are way better than me like SongLim and Sam didn't get the chance! Until now, I feel extremely guilty. Look, if I didn't register for it in the first place, maybe people who wished to be chosen would have been chosen. I threw away the chance of a gold. Slap me.

Mummy registered Sri KL for me. I will have to sit for the entrance exam with Jane on the 2nd of July. Which also means, I WILL BE SKIPPING ONE DAY OF SCHOOL! Hah I feel awesome. Thinking that I will be skipping PE class just makes me go hyper LOL. All of us, will be separated to our own lane next year. I'll be transferring, zYuan will be in Cempaka homeschool, yLing will be in Sri Garden whilst Gillian going to be in Singapore. Anyhow, this is for our own good. Kuen Cheng High is definitely not a school for humans. It causes extreme brain damage, torture with absurd school policies. Leaving is for the continuity of our live. I'll break down into something other than maltose, polypeptides or whatever thingies (sorry, too much of science hovering in my mind) if I were to be in this stupid school for two more years.

Birthday bashes! I know I know. These are things of months ago. But I'm still gonna blog about these. Firstly, it was yLing's birthday. We surprised her during the 1st recess. We bought her macarons and a photo album. Tell you what, most of my friends who flipped through the photo album said the same thing, "Yerrrr, you guys are such good friends. I hope I have friends like you all." Hahaha Yes we are! We spent about a month time to finish up with all the decorations, the words, and also adhering the photos of our memories. She was so touched her tears couldn't stop trickling. The most successful birthday bash ever!! She thought we have forgotten about her birthday. No worries! Your birthday can never ever be forgotten! We cross our heart! Thanks for the tears of pearl, they're beautiful XD. Alright, YiLing, I hope you like all the things we did for you. They're all about our sincere and love for you. Happy birthday :) .

Secondly, yTeng's birthday bash! We pretended like we knew nothing in the morning. I didn't wish her at all. But well, it was quite obvious that we were pretending. She knew, I guess. Since she pretended like she knew nothing, we might as well pretend haha. We surprised her during the 2nd recess. She didn't look surprised at all :( . Bought Uhu Uhu! cupcakes and an Oscar award for her. The lamest gift ever ahah. Oh and, the box for the award stated that it must only be given to winners, and it also says it's fragile. How cute :D . Dear YiTeng, next time when there are chances of birthday bashes for you, ACT LIKE YOU'RE SURPRISED so we can feel successful. Best is try to show us a few drops of your tears. Hahahaha we'll see ;) . Happy birthday and we love you. Don't pressure yourself so much. We're worried of you. We don't wanna see you staying up till 3 o'clock every day to study. We understand, all the stress you shoulder as the top student for the entire form is indescribable. But you still have to learn ways to chill. Okay :) ?

Lastly, zYuan's birthday bash! The most depressing birthday bash I would say. FYI, she's a HUGE FAN of YogaLin. Her mum didn't want to get her his new album so we were planning to buy her one and get her a soft toy together. Early in the morning on her birthday, I handed the donashi and the gifts to yLing. When I returned to class, she was telling us that her mum got her the album on Sunday. We were so shocked we didn't know what to say. YTeng said 'This will be the most surprising birthday gift for her'. Haha yea indeed. So during the 1st recess, we celebrated her birthday in class. Her expression went O.O when she opened the paper bag with the album inside. She was screaming 'AHHHHHH I GOT THIS ONE ALREADY!!'. How miserable... :( . This co-incidence brought us a lesson, which is to assure that the gift you're gonna buy for someone is something which she/her does not own. Anyway, happy birthday, son. Please continue being the crazy old brat haha. Have fun in life :D !

Our very last year,

with such beautiful memories :) .

I love you all.

A friendship won

A friendship lost

A friendship full of love and trust

A friendship gone

A friendship there

A friendship that we'll

ALWAYS share

xoxo

:: SOMETIMES WHEN WE TOUCH ::

2011-06-11T18:47:00.004+08:00

I, am so pressurized, by everything. Not like my friends in my school are chilling or what. And I'm definitely not making my life and theirs a comparison. I just wanna voice out everything that has never been revealed. No peeps, this is not an emo post. I wanna let my thoughts to be known, to be noticed, to be acknowledged.

Ever since I was born, I have always been the daughter of my parents who just simply acquiesce to their demands and their words. Now sometimes, I would just reminisce about everything. Not exactly, reminisce 'cos they aren't a good thing. So I would better say recall. When I was merely 5, my mum gave me two must-choose-one options, which were to go for violin OR ballet class. I was not even thinking about going for both but what could I do? I had no rights to defend. Violin and ballet? No way. Since young, I think violin could only produce squeaky sounds and to me, they were definitely not MUSIC. Ballet? Imagine myself dancing along the song of Fur Elise. More no way. I had to choose one on the spot and I, chose violin. The worst decision ever. But I was forced to do so. Until now, I still hate myself being a part of the violinists on planet earth. I suck in every bow, every double stops, every pizzicato, every turki, EVERYTHING!

Until when I was standard 6, my mum FINALLY thought out of the box. She asked me if I were keen to sit for the WMS entrance exam. Which meant, if I passed, I could put down EVERYTHING in Mandarin. Basically, my Mandarin has never been good. Oh and just for your information sake, I failed my Mandarin in the last term school exam. My FIRST time. I didn't bother much, since I suck in Mandarin so much already. I went, I studied so much for the entrance exam, not for UPSR, eventually I passed. You wouldn't know how jovial I was. I was like on cloud nine to the maximum words just couldn't describe. Think about it. You get to put down things you loathe for so long. Ain't life just fabulous with such brusque changes? Oh and, do you know that this friend of mine who was the top-5 student in my primary school failed the entrance exam? See? I've got such precious opportunity my parents didn't notice. They simply dumped me to this STUPID HECK CHINESE SCHOOL without even asking for my opinions. Was I invisible? Was I even noticeable? Was I really out of their sight? They made such stupid decision, not caring about how I really felt at that moment. And yes, you can totally imagine the situations after I was officially registered for KC High. I didn't talk to them for a week. I was so mad at them. Didn't they know how much I hated/hate Mandarin? I hate it I hate it I hate it. I feel like a bird that has been locked in a cage for decades. I feel like a stupid AH LIAN studying Mandarin from kindergarten, primary school and high school. Please, NO MORE MANDARIN WHEN I GO TO OVERSEAS FOR FURTHER STUDIES.

It's been 3 years. Yes, THREE YEARS. They don't know, I friggin' cried just for the friggin' maths exam. I didn't get the point. All the formulae, all the equations. Okay I SUCK IN MATHS. Don't ever think that students in A class are all prodigies. Especially someone good-for-nothing like me. The don't know, HOW STRESSED I ALWAYS AM when I come to class tests and school exams. Do you guys know that we're actually studying twice of what you guys are studying? We study maths (including SPM add-maths and mod-maths syllabus), chemistry, physics, biology, geography (c), history (c), chinese, english, BM for JUEC ; KH, sejarah, geografi, maths, science, chinese, english, BM for PMR. See. THIS IS WHAT YOU CALL ... S-T-R-E-S-S. If you're sitting for only PMR in a government school, PLEASE, FEEL BLESSED.

I study, just because I wanna remain in A class and not for my future or whatsoever. THIS TIME, I'm gonna make a huge decision of a lifetime. I HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS AND I DON''T WANNA BE CONTROLLED. I DON'T WANNA STUDY USELESS STUFFS. I DON'T WANT MY TEENAGE LIFE TO BE SO STRESSED OUT. I DON'T WANT MY LIFE TO BE SO DEVASTATED. IMMA REVIVE IT FROM DEATH! I WANNA SUBSTITUTE SOMETHING I DEEPLY LIKE TO MY LIFE.

I would have to say that, NOT all of the students can handle such pressure. But well, some are good enough to cope with all of these. Especially those who are really interested in these subjects and those who are already so sure that they would be heading to the 'chinese-lane'. Like going to Taiwan or China. ME?????? PUH-LEASE!

How can I believe in myself when I'm not even being me??

I'M SO LEAVING.

No xoxo today for you. I'm on fire.

:: STARRY STARRY NIGHT ::

2011-06-08T22:41:00.002+08:00

Smile for the sake of a smile,

Smile for the sake of happiness,

Smile for the sake of life,

Smile because of hope left in life.

Smile my friends,

Smile for me my Love,

Smile those same sweet smiles,

Smile so the world can be a peaceful dove...

Smile

xoxo

:: PETER PAN ::

2011-06-04T23:14:00.006+08:00

Hello earthlings! I'm currently suffering, in PAIN. When I turn my head to the back, my neck aches; When I lift my left hand up, it aches; When I bend down my body; my backbone aches... In short, every single part of my body is aching. Yesterday's yoga class was superb. The postures were not really that tough but heck, all the postures stretched every part of my muscles. I just feel like lying down on my bed for the entire week. Even for now, my FINGERS are aching. Now I can completely comprehend the definition of, fragility. Yes I'm fragile. As fragile as smoke which turns into smouldering ashes easily; As fragile as flowers out there which would witter in no time; As fragile as a broken heart ... Urgh, Emily, please stop with all the philosophy.

So basically, today is quite an eventful day. Been through things which I have never tried. No, in precise, just ONE thing, which made me feel that belief in existence of spirits and sorts is pretty ... authentic. My mum says it's better not to blog/fb about this so I guess I won't be blogging about this. Haha, you can always nudge me in fb chat or ring me anytime. I will definitely tell you my experience, BUT not over here :D . Just being a typical daughter who follows her mum's demand. If you're really that interested, it's something to do with 'video conferencing with our dead ones'. Guess you're smart enough to get the picture already?

After that-very-scary-event, daddy brought us to Malacca. The highways were all congested. Daddy initially thought of returning to KL but well, the highway to KL was congested as well. Yea, just imagine us being stuck in the car for 4 hours. From KL to Malacca, 4-hour journey. Yes, nightmare. My dad kept repeating 'My legs jam already' whereas all of us were sleeping, but I was actually half awake. Malacca, a place with all attested historical buildings. A place, with so many things which recall bad memories. To Emily, the SUPER BORING PLACE EVERRR.

I've been to Malacca for so many times I lost count. My primary school trip has always been the same. Malacca, Malacca and MORE Malacca. 6 years already, and yes, I've been to Malacca for 6 years consecutively excluding those with the family, listening to the tour guide telling us about the same old story, blahblah. I hate Malacca. It's a place like an over-pressured sauna and a place which the authorities will never get rid of the filthiness. Yesterday, I told mum 'Can I stay at home'. Well, you know the answer already don't you?

Sobs, I was thinking, if I didn't end up in Malacca, I could have studied so so so much. Oh yea!! In my previous entry, I did mention that I would post up what I've studied. -long long whine -Nothing much. Seriously, nothing much. I studied a little of Biology and Physics. That's it. I think I'm dead.... Imagining the picture of myself screaming before the day of exam, I just feel like giving up. I'm serious for this time. GIVE UP is such an easy thing to do but to BUCK UP is so tough I would rather bang my head against the wall. I need, Higglytown Heroes. No joke here. Or maybe, Totally Spies or Kim Possible. Or even The Super Sleuths will do. What they have to do when they need help is to SING and TADAAA, problems are all solved. Does this work for us too? -tears drop on my BOOKS-

To my dearest you-know-who,

Chopsticks are always meant to be a pair,

Never separated never far apart

Never acknowledged but still together.

I can rely on you so much

I can separate this pair of chopsticks,

Taking half of my soul to you

For you are already NOTHING to me

as you're more than EVERYTHING to me.

xoxo

:: DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS ::

2011-06-01T20:51:00.011+08:00

So, must be thinking if I literally studied? I'm disappointed in myself. I feel like the biggest loserh ever, occupying so much space on planet earth which tons of people out there could have been better than I do but didn't have the opportunities. I, failed studying. I initially wanted to study Biology and Physics today. But I was heck complaining about my school to Jane and in the end, I didn't study a thing. I'm worse than a pile of shit. I don't care. In my next update, I'll tell you what I've studied and I SWEAR for the next time, I will keep my words.

Went for History extra class in school just now. It sure was a total bore. Oh and, my attire went totally wrong LOL. For extra classes, the proper attire for a student: long pants + any T-shirts which belong to our school OR school uniform. I didn't know that, so I wore my PE shirt and PE shorts. HAHA I looked so outstanding. People were asking me 'You're ready to go for our next Sports Day?' haha. Oh and, today's KaiXin's birthday. Have a good life KaiXin :) ! Not to forget, my son did a very traumatic thing. She wore SLIPPERS to school, wow how great was that? Yeaa, she's awesome like that.

Alrighty, today, I'll be writing about my school's Sports Day, including preliminary match and finals. Sorry for the delay, I was super lazy to write about this, but I want Sports Day to be a part of my memory so that I can reminisce everything when I'm older haha. This is the main point why a blogger blogs about everything. Hmm, if I'm not mistaken, preliminary match was on a Friday. Me, ZhiSan and ChauPing took part in the 'metal ball' competition. Okay, I don't know what's it called but I guess you know about the game right? A game which you have to toss a metal ball as far as you can. Don't downgrade the ball. It looks petite but it's heavier than what you think. It was so heavy I didn't have ample energy to lift up the ball. I lost, we lost. Didn't give it too much expectations. I'm so not a sporty girl. Took part since nobody was interested. At least for now, I know how heavy a metal ball is.

The preliminary matches for throwing the javelin and discus were held in a sports school next to Sri Garden. Haha, lost. Made some new friends there Yay.

Congratulations are in order. I would like to seize this opportunity to congratulate some of my friends who got through the preliminary match and went into the finals. Gillian, WanZhen, YikXin, JingWern, BingSheng, YeowRong, JiaJie, KaiYin and YongXin. If I have mistyped any one of you, do tell. They were awesome. How I wish I could run like them. Taking a picture of me running on a track has always been on my wishlist. But hmmm, when will I ever get a chance for that? Camwhored a lot with Tzarina and YiTeng. We were bored to death. And it was hell hot over there. Good thing was they were playing so many awesome songs. They played 3 of Justin Bieber's songs and Tzarina went like 'AHHHHHHHHHHHHH'. Typical belieber LOL. The photos are all in my facebook photo gallery. I can't like, upload everything into Blogger haha. These are merely a part of it.

Finals was on a Monday. A terribly hot Monday I would say. Bought McDonald's for lunch. YeowRong simply spilled the syrup on MY hotcakes and man, do you know how much I hate the taste of syrup? So I gave my hotcakes to him, under no circumstances. How kind of me, yea right. Camwhored with Nini, YiLing, ZhuanYuan, YiTeng, and a little with MinXian and ZiEe. Boy, I'm glad that I have no friends who have camera phobia. Taking pictures are just sho sho fun :) , especially you have tons of friends together fooling around with you.

Firstly, much congrats to my awesome friend, GILLIAN LEE! Spot her medal *wowwwwwwww*. She's got a 1st runner up in the 4*100m race. See? We knew you could win! You practised so hard nobody could ever do that. Always have faith in yourself honey! There are still spaces for improvements and we hope one day we'll see you holding the medals in Olympics! Long live Gillian!! Next, congratulations to WanZhen, JingWern, Gillian and YikXin for achieving a GOLD medal in the 4*400m relay race! Man, you all totally rocked. Thirdly, well done to BingSheng and WanZhen! Guys, they have so awesome stamina they didn't even look tired after running in the 4*400m match. Define ENVIOUS. Haha. Last but not least, YongXin for winning in the high jump match! To those who lost, DON'T GIVE UP and YOU'RE NOT LOUSY, just, there are people out there who are better. So, THINK POSITIVELY. YOU, can be better than them!! Aal izz well! Huzzah! -More photos in Facebook -

Shyt, my back aches right now. Haha, crappy. Went to Empire Mall last week. Was walking around with Jane, we had nothing to do 'cos daddy and mummy were eating with the aunties and uncles in Kizsports. We saw so many awkward stuffs like a shop which sells recyclable things. Then, when we were to go to the carpark after lunch, we walked pass this 'World's Tallest Indoor Tube Slide' and daddy paid 12 bucks for me to have a ride. Was pretty scared at first 'cos the slide's hell long. Then, the guy pushed me and when I was sliding down, the only thing which came into my mind was 'THIS IS IT?? CHEHHHHH' . Yea, peeps, DON'T waste 12 bucks just for a stupid ride. If you wanna know how it feels like, just simply try on the slide in the park anywhere. Trust me, there's nothing much. Just a little bit longer, and taller. About 10 seconds I guess?

Think these are all for today. Goodnight :)

Give me some sunshine

Give me some rain

Give me another chance

I wanna grow up once again ...

xoxo

~Damn blogger, look at all the spacings. Urgh.

:: BE MY FIRST ::

2011-05-30T22:13:00.008+08:00

Hello everyone! Today's the first day of holiday. Told myself to wake up at 7.30am (I know I know, it's just SO impossible for me to drag myself out of bed that early), but ended up waking up at 12pm (as expected). Must be wondering WHY did I ever set such a rare target. Erm, nothing much, just feeling a little down lately. I don't know. I have a feeling that the earth is gonna explode anytime. Hence, telling myself that appreciating the time is important. Weird huh? I've been telling people 'Hey, c'mon, the end of the world is not going to be so soon. Try viewing the situation from different perspectives. Who knows? Maybe God is trying to scare us?' Now, who's the one shivering here? There are just too many astonishing catastrophes happening around the world. Japan's earthquake, and now? Moussa's tsunami. People, the world, is changing. By observing all the drastic changes, the end of the world is not that impossible already. Err, sorry for all the craps, but I'm feeling like a useless person thinking that our hardwork and efforts on studies and everything will be ... nothing.

My friends from other schools are chilling in the holidays. Oh why us? I will have to sit for the mid-term school exam right after holidays. No fun, no fun at all. Made a timetable for revisions. I am very VERY sure that I'll be spending a little of my time for revisions, I PROMISE. See, the pledge is over here and YOU witness it. I'm not gonna let anyone down again. I will try my very best to control, to control not to be fooling around so much. 2 outings in these 2 weeks. Quite tough but at least it is sticking with my plan. 1st outing is with Jup and Ne whereas the 2nd outing is with the Albuses for KungFuPanda2! :( I feel so stressed out. ZhiSan knows me best. She knew I won't be studying 'cos since form 1, I did not study during the holidays. So she told me 'Do you wanna be in the same class with us. Do you? Think about me, think about ZY, think about Gillian, think about everyone here. Do you want us to be far apart?' ZhiSan, you have given me the enthusiasm to not waste anytime during the holidays and STUDY. Well, I won't be studying for the entire day but I will at least try to study some from the exam scope :) . Ain't life just fabulous with such busy plannings? Yea right, busy.

Has anyone over here watched 3 Idiots? It's a movie directed by the director of Slumdog Millionaire. My friend copied the movie to me but sadly, no subtitles at all!! FYI, it's an Hindi movie. LOL How would I understand a single thing? In need for someone to introduce me some NICE movies, or dramas. Just SOMETHING that will keep me entertained in my holidays. Hong Kong dramas aren't working for me. PPS is pissing me off already. Some people smartly deleted the Hong Kong dramas from the list and I friggin' curse the person who did that. It's like half my soul has been taken away. No HongKong dramas, No life!! D:

Too much of blabbering. Alright. Imma talk about this year's Mothers Day. Didn't really celebrate much. Made mum a present. It's like a scrapbook which consists of many poems about mothers. Did it in the eleventh hour so it ended up pretty BAD haha. Celebrated Mothers Day in gramma's house, as usual. The first thing my relatives said to me when they saw me was 'YOUR TEETH!!'. Lol, yes darlings, my teeth are awesome like this, and never vice versa :D . Well, I shall let the photos speak.

The next day, we decided to loiter around at Sunway Pyramid 'cos we could no longer fight with the extreme weather. It was like the land would crack in no time. It was hot, very. Well, IT IS STILL HOT RIGHT NOW ANYWAY!! Okay, back to the topic. Had dinner at Shogun buffet. The main point I'm telling you this is, in Shogun, customers who are 55 years old and above are considered as senior citizens. They get to have 20% off. And yes, my daddy is officially 55 this year. Mummy said 'OI, you're 55 already. Tell her!' Daddy ignored mummy and continued eating. He said he would rather pay a higher price than admitting that he's a senior citizen. HAHA doncha think my daddy is sho cute LOL? About the food, normal as usual. Nothing much.

Had dinner at Umai-ya yesterday. There were these 3 kiddos playing with their dad's iPad. They were playing this game which I've also downloaded few days back in my iTouch. The music of the game kept repeating profusely it couldn't stop, 'cos they wouldn't stop playing!! So, the music was playing in my mind throughout the night. It was hell annoying I tell you. URGH.

Over here, I would like to convey my full gratitude, love and appreciation to my most beloved, mummy. Mummy, you have been protecting me away from all evils, from all devils, from all demons. You're always there with me, no matter how hard it is to go through all the obstacles. You, are always next to me come what may. You endured all the pain I've given you when I was in your tummy. Until when I was already born, you taught me everything one should know. Until when I was no longer an infant, you brought me up. You gave me opportunities for swimming, skating, drawing, speaking, violin, piano lessons. You knew, I was a shy girl. Look, I, am no longer the girl who dared not talk to strangers, who knew nothing but to cry, who knew nothing but to wait for the time to pass by. You're the best mum, I love you. I promise, I'll try my best in my exams. I'll never ever let you down. I want you to live in the prettiest house in the future. I want you to see me with the most awesome wig on my head in the court. I want you to see me being successful. Just wait and see :)

xoxo

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2011-05-28T19:28:00.002+08:00

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:: IF I COULD SEE YOU AGAIN ::

2011-05-03T15:59:00.003+08:00

Why just listening to other's predicaments

and coax them to heed your words,

but not pouring out yours instead?

Kenny G

is coming!

I wanna go!

Who is kind enough

To spare me a ticket to his concert?

Who is kind enough

to buy me a saxaphone?

Just a random post on a windy Tuesday :)

xoxo

:: LAND AND SKY ::

2011-04-30T17:16:00.010+08:00

Yay Today's Saturday! Holidays for three days are already good enough for us, students of independent school. I resent all the projects for making my life so miserable. Seriously, what's the use doing so many projects? I don't think they're useful. You tell me that they can make us more knowledgeable in those particular subjects? Then, you're wrong. What I did for my projects were copy, copy and more copy. So you wanna tell me that they're meaningful, no?

So, what are you gonna do in these 3 days of holidays? Screw up at home? Being a goody-good bookworm? I want my holidays to be useful 'cos my next holidays will be scheduled with all my revisions for the next school examination. I can't like, literally go out for 3 days in consecutive right? Well, Zyuan asked me out for a picnic. Frankly speaking, I haven't been for a picnic before ever since I was born. Epic much? I hated picnics. I will never accept others' invitations to me for picnics. Surprisingly for this time, I want to give it a try. I want to experience how it feels like. Also, we can have photoshoots there! Ya noe, the scenery, green grass, fresh air, EVERYTHING! :D and right after that, we'll be heading to Sunway Pyramid. Should I, or should I not? I'm not sure even my mum allows. But before that, I still have to ensure if I'm willing to go. Peeps, should I, or should I not!?

Went to Midvalley with a bunch of friends last last Sunday. It was to celebrate Tzarina's birthday. I bought her a tee which says 'Justin Bieber, marry me!' . Yes, she is a huge belieber. As in an extremely loyal belieber. Every single status of hers in facebooks is about JB and without JB, it's like a knife stabs onto her heart merciless. Not exaggerating alright. Okay back to the topic. Dressed up, daddy fetched me to Midvalley. At first, I was like 'Shyt, I'm so gonna be killed. I'm late!!' . When I was there already, solely Nini and Tzar (she was thoroughly black) were there. We initially wanted to spend around 2 hours in Redbox before our movie, but it was hell closed Urgh. Sad case.

Tzar was wearing her Charles & Keith high heels. We called her a model 'cos she was walking like models (definition of model-walking: butt shakes from right to the left, and then from right to the left, and it goes on and on in the same manner). Coincidentally, there was a fashion show organized by Padini, and there was a huge stage, so we kinda like teased her, 'OMG there's even a stage prepared for ya! Birthday girl!' . We went to Starbucks and I ordered a slice of marble cheese cake. Was famished by that time since I only munched on a plain white bread in the morning. Later, everyone arrived.

Zi Ee said that Mei Xian was going to be watching Justin Bieber: Never Say Never in 3D at the same time, in the same cinema as us. She was dating her boyfriend, precisely. So we were like 'Shall we set up a KCN meeting already?' LOL we shan't, guys. So at 1 sharp, we headed to the cinema and waited for them to buy some snacks. While we were waiting for the movie to start, Charmaine was yelling 'No don't start DON'T!!' FYI, she is one of the anti-Bieber's :D . The movie ended with JB's Never say never. I will have to honestly say that the movie wasn't really my cup of tea. MJ's This is it is still forever and always Top 1 in my list. The movie was, a little boring, but also kinda intriguing in certain scenes. JB's laughter is cute, just only noticed that. We felt like as if we were refrigerated. It was with no doubt, freezing cold. Gawsh, thank god we did not sacrifice our lives in it.

After the movie, our God of Food, Zi Ee, brought us to Yogitree which is situated in The Gardens. I ordered Portobello Herbs Pasta with Mushrooms. It sucked IT SUCKED!! 'Are you enjoying yourself, Emily?' Zi Ee asked. I gave him a disgusted face and then he exchanged his Morning Set with mine. Phew, my life saviour. He helped us to order macarons. I bought 10 macarons! Macarons are so heavenly, oh macarons oh macarons :D ! Ordered another marble cheese cake there again.

Later, we took the cab and went to Timesquare. We got Tzar a pair of Supra (Just so you don't know, it's a pair of shoes like JB's. Google it for more info). She kept thanking us with FULL gratitude. She kept hugging us and thanking us. It was her dream to own a pair of Supra. Zhi Wen kept teasing 'Supra is Super Bra! Let's buy her a super bra!' LOL that was hilarious.

Had a real fun day with them. I'm starting to realize how vital friends are in life. Some issues happened and made me appreciate friendships even more. I pity those who love being a loner and refuse to mix with more people, you know, those anti-socials. With friends, there are no spaces of emptiness :) . Concur?

I saw a beautiful escapade,

I opened my eyes

And realized it was just a dream ...

xoxo

:: JAR OF HEARTS ::

2011-04-29T18:09:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I would sit on the bench outside, and allow the ray of the sun above to burn me; I would allow the tears to trickle hysterically; I would allow the wind to pass through my hair gently...

Have you ever wondered, what will the world revolve into if there is no 'sometimes'? Will everything be forever and ever, with no sometimes? This question has been pondering in my mind since I comprehended the chaos on earth, in humanity, among the citizens, all over the place.

With sometimes, you would try your very utmost to hail something you dislike, something you loathe, something you never wanted or yearned for.

Sometimes, life would be cliche expected. Never so surprising yet boring.

Sometimes, I would think over the past I've put myself through. All the bittersweets, which still refused to quit. They built a harmony habitat in my heart, making a deep wound on it. The presence of them, made the reflection of me myself looked blue. The long lost smile, wrinkled cheeks, were somehow missed. They were with no doubt, mesmerizing, intoxicating...

What am I illogically thinking? A time travel? Is there any necessity for me to rewind everything? Is 'let bygone be bygones' true? I just failed to erase every bits of annoyance and torment. They were left in the bin, but never taken away.

Who knows. Someday, Monday would come after Saturday, but not Sunday; Thursday would be before Friday, but not Wednesday. Sometimes, awkward things do happen in life, we just have to try to end the hide-and-seek game.

Sometimes, I would ask myself, what will life be, when our life's got no suspensions, climax, like the ornamented musics?

This may sound complicated, but can I ask you once more...

What if, there is no 'sometimes'?

Sometimes,

sometimes is never sometimes...

:: YOU NEVER KNEW ::

2011-04-27T19:30:00.004+08:00

Sunshine can no longer be seen. The clouds look like they are darting all over the place. They can't stop, they don't want to. Sparkling stars are all messily scattered. They sparkle like as if they want to move, they want to be freed, but they can't, they have no choice nor any rights to make decisions. The birds are afraid of the dark, they flew without chirpping like their daily routine in the noon. The route is never so quiet, so peaceful, so warm.

I, am standing over here, looking at all God's creations. Why were we created?

We are here, to continue life. We are here, to achieve our goals, with determination and adamant. We end everything to a fare-thee-well. We face the impossibles, we challenge them, we fight for what we should have. We don't escape from them, we don't shirk them, we were born for we have the liberty to fight for it.

Why were human creations born to be emotional? Why? In every second that passes with every tick-tocks, our nerve impulses different kinds of sensations straight to our brain. Our brain interprets them and tells us how we should respond. A person with no emotions, they don't smile, they don't cry, they don't laugh, they don't frown, they don't smirk, they're flat emotionless. You want to be like them too?

Why were we born?

Or to be more precise, why were we literally created?

Why do we have to be here?

Were there ever two lanes of options which asked you, do you want to be on planet earth?

Why were things covered with colours? Why not just leave them colourless?

Life has too many Why's. I just want someone or something to answer all my questions. WHY am I typing this right now?

Thou shalt not doubt, we were born to be asked and to be told.

No you don't get me,

The point is,

Why am I here?

:: WHERE'D YOU GO ::

2011-04-04T13:52:00.009+08:00

Happy Monday readers! I'm uber free now, so I've decided to blog. I'm really addicted to Sam Tsui's songs right now. He's got a lot of mashups and accapella. They're all so awesome I can't resist not to listen every day! Especially the duet he did together with Christina Grimmie -- Just a dream originally by Nelly. I replayed it profusely for more than 10 times consecutively. Search 'Just a dream - Sam Tsui '. You'll fall in love with it just like me :) . Not to forget, my most beloved Mike Tomkins! Man, he has a darn muti-functional mouth! He can produce songs just with his mouth. He can do the beatboxes, drum rolls, snares and a lot more sound effects. He does accapellas perfectly. Do youtube him too!

I'm superbly relieved that I can talk properly right now. Guys, I've got 12 ulcers in my mouth last week! How was it? Shocking enough? It's utterly true. My braces kept rubbing my gum, so ulcers sorta 'evoluted' in my mouth. I couldn't eat anything but porridge. You will never understand how much pain I've suffered through the days with 12 ulcers. I was like an emo kid in school. I didn't know attaching braces would make me suffer so much! - the pain is still hovering in my mind!! (shake head shake head) - My friends recommended Bonjela to me but it wasn't working at all. In the end, I actually took up my courage and tried guggling salt water. It wasn't painful at all, fortunately. Now I get why my friends said having braces are tiresome. It was nothing to me at first. But well, I've gone through the pain, so hopefully I won't be having any 'evolution of ulcers' in my mouth again!

I just got the school's Chinese magazine (which is named as 'Shi Sui'). The pictures, layouts, cover, theme, they're all perfect. But one thing is that the articles are so boring nobody even gave a damn to it. They don't have any factual articles. They're mostly poems or emo articles. I merely flipped through just to check out their pictures and layouts. Still, KCN is much better than 'Shi Sui', eventhough our school focuses more on 'Shi Sui'. I was reading back my previous posts just now. Read through a few of my posts which I virtually said how much I hated KCN. I think KCN isn't that bad afterall. In fact, I think it's fun and we can show our articles in public but not keeping them to ourselves, just like what Beatrice said. KCN is like a family, a big family, a warm family. I just don't get why I loathed it so much last year.

Went to DBKL for the Sejarah Project risalah last last week. DBKL is lousy. We got served real badly by the people in-charge over there. The talk should have started at 3 but the Malays got there after an hour. Seriously, what is wrong with them? It was heating inside. Plus, the weather these days are terrible to the max. They came in and told us they had some technical problems. Gawd knows if they were trying to save the electricity or they're just too lazy to even switch on the AC button. Yea, this is Malaysia. Wawasan 2020 is crap.

You abused your power.

You will never change and you'll remain being this way forever.

I hope the gossips are just scandals.

You will never be my top priority.

Despite the fact that I'm yours.

I don't mind what you've done to me.

Do as you please.

This is over.

Where there is hope, there is life :)

xoxo

:: SHOOTING STARS ::

2011-03-19T18:41:00.009+08:00

What else do you want

when you already have everything?

Good evening earthlings! Just came back from violin class. Super duper bored right now. Thinking about school which is gonna reopen on Monday, the first thing I wanna do right now is to blog, blog and blog. Today is pretty much a BAAAAAD day. I hiccuped thrice a day and I can feel that my tummy is gonna be aching sooner or later. Haven't been to Facebook for two days 'cos my right eye was swollen and red. At first, I actually assumed that it's conjunctivities. Daddy brought me to the optical specialist clinic and what the doctor said was merely 'Nah, it's not a big deal. You will have to drop some eye drops and everything'll be fine.' I didn't get to say anything much and we had to pay him a bomb. I actually kept my gadgets off 'cos they may worsen my swell. It sure was torturing!

Alright! Stop thinking 'bout the swell, I'm feeling a little pain right now. Went out with Jup on Tuesday. Guess what? She's gonna have braces next week! I can't wait to see her with braces! She's gonna look either cute or nerdy -tongue's out- . Had lunch at Dragon-i. We camwhored a lot, as usual. But I'm not gonna upload everything up here. Ya know, blogger has limited space for bloggers to upload photos. Okay then, enjoy the photos below :)

Never knew having braces in my mouth will be okay. My friends have been telling me that it's gonna be very painful and all sorts. To me, I only feel the pain every time I eat. So I've been eating porridge every day, for every meals! But other than eating, I don't think it's painful at all, just a little bit weird feeling all the teeth are tightened up. I look hideous, sob sobs.

"Hi, my name's Betty".

it never gets easier,

you just get better.

- source: yijun's fb

xoxo

:: A THOUSAND MILES ::

2011-03-14T13:21:00.020+08:00

Good afternoon whoever who is reading this! I update so often right now, yay! The current trend is about Japan's earthquake and tsunami. Close your eyes, hold your hands together, and pray, mourn for them, sincerely. Gosh I sound so awkward :D .

Facebook's line is EXTRA slow right now. Does it have anything to do with the earthquake? Others are going well, as usual. But why Facebook? Why? -skip skip- Lee Chong Wei won Lin Dan in All Englands badminton match last night!! Holey mama Malaysia Gemilang!! I told my mum yesterday that LCW will be competing with LD at night, and the first response she gave me was 'oh? It's an of course that LD will defeat LCW 'till flat!'. LCW, good luck in Olympic next year!! You can do it!

Chatted with TzarMum last night. There's this part where I just couldn't stop laughing!!

Tzar: I'm gonna write another fiction after finishing My One.

Me: Great!!

Tzar: What do you think I should write about for the next one?

Me: Hmmm .... what about writing about JB being a wizard and he's gonna fall in love with a maggot.

Tzar: What? Maggot? No ewe!!

Me: ??

Tzar: Imagine JB kissing a baby fly... -.-

Me: OHHH MUGGLE!!

Currently addicted to tzar's fan fiction!! Click here to read her fiction. You will have no regrets reading it! In fact, you will actually think that it may be even better than the fictions in MPH!! :P Trust me.

♥

(Blogger is lousy, it makes my entry look totally messed up.)

Okay peeps, I'm gonna write about our exam-is-over-celebration right now. At 9am, me, Gillian, YTeng, ZYuan and ZSan took the monorail to Timesquare. Woah the monorail was like completely crowded with KC students. We didn't want to bump into any KC students, 'cos we knew earlier that most of them would be heading to Midvalley. Hence, we decided to go to Timesquare. Until on that day, everyone was like 'Omg you're going to TS too??". So yea, Timesquare was like Kuen-Cheng-Day on Friday hah! Would be extra fun if YLing and JXi could make it :( .

It was pretty 'peaceful' when we reached there. Ya noe, it was a school day and everyone's working. Non-KCstudents who were found there must be playing truant! Alright, we were fooling around, camwhoring. Zhisan's DSLR's so baffling. I didn't wanna use it 'cos I was afraid that I would really really kill it. We walked around, got bored already, then we walked to Sungei Wang. We saw Ah Niu in Sungei Wang! He was promoting the 30-hour-famine function I guess? They wanted to get his autograph, but he was getting interviewed by the reporters from channel 8, so we decided to go and have our lunch as our tummy's already growling.

We had our lunch in Gasoline. The worst restaurant I have ever been to in my entire life!! We were not even served properly, not even respected. They kept giving us the 'urgh' face. Oh and their cleanliness! EWE EWE EWE! The food, gosh the food was tasteless, disgusting. ZYuan and ZSan had to wash the cutleries themselves! Hello, do you actually need your customers to wash the cutleries for you, seriously?

We then left as quickly as possible. We returned to TS and loitered around, getting our food digested before heading to Cosmo World. At around 1pm, we bought the tickets at RM37 each. I was soooo traumatized when my schoolmates told me that a ticket may cost RM90++! Completely relieved when the cashier told us that it's only RM37! There was this very annoying woman who kept asking us to go to her haunted house. And it's friggin' expensive, I didn't wanna get a heart attack by paying her with such a high price LOL. Do view the snapshots below! Words can't describe all the fun :D !

See the bread above? Must be wondering what's it. It's called 'SOUP IN BREAD'! There was this Kuen Cheng girl sitting behind. She ordered 'soup in bread' but drank the soup and left the bread uneaten, not even a little bit! She should have ordered 'soup only' but not 'soup in bread'! We were sorta pissed. It was just so wasted. The 'soup in bread' was awesome!

Remember what I've said in my previous post? Teeth hurt and all that? Yeap, my very last awesome dinner was Japanese food. Now, I only get to eat noodles, bread, porridge, and all sorts that I only have to swallow but not to bite. Sighs, 3 years' too long! I can't stand it anymore already!! D: sobs.

About my birthday, I mis-uploaded a lot of photos!! So hah, here's just a photo of what I've got from my friends. -this post is so long, I'm sooooo tired of thinking what to write already D: - Sorry that's just an excuse hah!! I've got to finish up my Hong Kong drama right now!! Yay!! :D Outing tomorrow. Will update as soon as possible!! Toodles everyone. Loves.

I am the lamest person ever

And I'm lovin it.

xoxo

:: BORN THIS WAY ::

2011-03-12T22:45:00.007+08:00

Hey loves -flirts-, I'm here to announce about my awesome condition right now. I am enjoying the breeze in a coffin, killed by all my 'loyal' readers. Okay okay, white flag's up. My blog's left dead for so long. I'm here to apologize from the bottom of my heart, and I swear, for real, for this time, I SWEAR, I'll update as frequent as I could, when it's necessary to :) . I'm gonna skip everything. As in seriously EVERYTHING that I was supposed to tell here. I have too many to tell. So I'm gonna summarize everything up, and skipping some of those which are quite minor. Oh my birthday!? Hah, well about that, I'll update about that when the day comes.

Alright. School's exam is officially over. Nothing much to say, but still, a few words which I really wanna tell: "Dear KuenCheng, what the freaking hell is wrong with you eh? Testing us on every subjects with gorgeously hard questions? Do you know how many students were still awake at 4 in the morning!? Do you!? Do you know, we need to study twice as much as those who study in government schools? Do you!?" That's it. Now get the picture? Why putting so much effort when you're not gonna get anything you want in return? God, please God, my dearest god, I don't wanna get like, the last position in my class D: . Sobs. Sobs. If I were given an option, I wouldn't be here suffering like a bird which has no freedom, which its motivation can no where be found.

Skip skip skip. Well, school was dismissed at 9am yesterday. The second when we handed in our Geography paper, we were like already floating in the air, so heavenly eh? Me, Gillian, Zyuan, YTeng and ZSan then took the monorail to Timesquare. I shall update about our exam-is-over-celebration next week. So, here are some snapshots taken before CNY. I know, I know, I'm posting things up which are decades later than everyone else. I'm unique alright -winks- :D ? I rarely camwhore with my school attire, 'cause at my point of view, somehow I think our uniform looks like an apron. Hideous enough. Dear KuenCheng, you are a private school and you can change our uniforms, why can't you just CHANGE our uniforms just like how other private schools did?

Chinese New Year Dinner!

♥

Chinese New Year Buffet!

♥

My teeth are in serious pain right now. The dentist stuck some elastic bands within my teeth. I feel like as if my teeth are all tightened up. Went to KLCC with mum just now. I couldn't bite properly. My teeth disallowed me to bite things quickly and hardly. Ya know how torturing it was? Shocking news here. Imma put braces on this coming Wednesday! Seriously guys, THIS WEDNESDAY!! That's so soon. No more sotong, chocolates, chips and many many more. I feel like having a farewell party with the food. D: I extracted 3 teeth last week. I was supposed to extract 4 teeth but one of the teeth was erupted, so booyah. Believe it or not, the wound couldn't stop bleeding for 6 hours in consecutive! Then, I thought it stopped bleeding. I slept and when I woke up, I saw BLOOD on my pyjamas. You get the picture? Awhhhh, I have to take a lot A LOT of pictures 'cos on Wednesday, I'm gonna be like Ugly Betty, with ugly smile and swollen-liked cheeks. 3 years, please be brisk enough :) .

Hmm, I can't think of anything to write already. C'ya next week! :) .

xoxo

:: FALLING IN THE MOONLIGHT ::

2011-01-09T19:26:00.006+08:00

Is my blog dead yet? Nope, it nearly died. It's suffocating and now I'm here to give it more oxygen. How can I be so mean that I left my blog dead for one month!? Well, the exact reason is, I have so much to update that I didn't know where to start. Hmm, shall I start from the school holidays? Hah I know, it's such a long-time-ago thing. You don't have to read, but I wanna write.

Holiday was ... worse than all the holidays I have ever had. Of course, one of the reasons was the leaving of my most beloved grandpa. But, TVB totally hyped me up. I've watched Twilight Investigation, La Femme Desperado, Rosy Business and No regrets. I have no regrets watching No Regrets! Not at all! So far, No Regrets is my favourite TVB series. Everyone who watched it gave a high thumbs-up! I started to admire Sheren Tang a lot. Her acting skills are so excellent that I think no one can act better than her! You will agree with this when you've seen any of her series - "Sheren's eyes can act'. The first impression she gave me was 'don't you dare to touch me'. 'Cos she's got the kind of eye contacts, which give people the 'woah' thing. Look at her, she's so friggin' beautiful, and she's already 44! Can you actually believe that she's 44!!?? Her face looks like an angel. :S OhEmGee I'm so in love with her. I hope oh I hope she's my half-mum/step mum (my mum is 44 too). Okay I guess that's too exaggerated. Having an interview with her can already reach my heart's content :) .

So, have you watched No Regrets. If you haven't, c'mon, just watch it, I guarantee you that you will love it a lot, just like me! It's like a drug to me! If you have, I KNOW WATCHA GONNA SAY! IT'S AWESOME RIGHT!? Wayne and Sheren are the most compatible on-screen couple ever! They acted in Rosy Business and No Regrets (Rosy Business 2) together. You can totally see the fireworks between them! Their love, is known as True Love. They don't have any kissing scenes or body interactions, but the thing is, you can FEEL their love. It's so impact, indescribable and rare. Sheren and Wayne both were given the 'Best actor award' and 'Best actress award' respectively for 2 years consecutively! Wayne oh Wayne, why the friggin' hell are you married? D: I'm seriously in need to watch series of you two getting together again! Wayne, the awesome pig in Journey To The West, thoroughly turned into a courageous and loyal man! I bet Sheren will fall for him if he's available. What a waste! They named Sheren and Wayne 'Sherayne'! I think I'm gonna name my future child Sherayne :D . People were discussing about 'Rosy Business 3'. Unfortunately, Mr Cheung Wah Biu(The author of the entire story [Rosy Business 1 & 2]) has gone to Taiwan to develop more on his career. Depression D: .

:) I shall stop about that. People will get bored of it. But if you want me to write more, I would spend my entire lifetime to write and write and write about Rosy Business 1 and 2! So, how did you celebrate your New Year? After Christmas, I went to Suanne's house and slept over for 2 nights. Just like last year. We were talking about our childhood together. That was like so hilarious. Tell you what, we spent 4 hours just sitting on the couch, talking about that. This is the sole topic that we will never get bored with. On the 1st day of Year 2011, we went to Marriot Hotel. Japanese Buffet is loved, like always.

Year 2011 is not gonna be pretty, I suppose. Think about JUEC and PMR. Gawsh they're giving me extreme stress! I can't take it anymore. I'm gonna collapse. Why oh why? Students do suffer the most D: . How was your Year 2010? Mine? Bad enough. Jack and Grandpa left. However, I shall try letting it go. Let their souls support me, forever and always :) . Well, 2010 has given me some great moments too. My friends, yeap, they're undoubtedly another part of my life. Abundant thanks to all who gave my life a massive smile. You guys are awesome. The Albuses, ZhiSan Wendy JieXi the Soulmates, The Phantom of Music Crew, ZhiWen ChangHwang ChunMeng Seth BingSheng the Uncles and many many more. You all rock! You're a gift to me, a gift from god. I appreciate you all very much. Thanks -bow- . May god remain our friendship forever!

To be honest, remaining a friendship is not easy. I have a great example - My primary school friends. Sometimes I feel that when we talk face to face, there seemed to be an invisible wall between. It's not easily noticeable, but I can feel it. Went to the reunion of Class 6S in FullHouse. It wasn't exactly a reunion I would say. Most of them gave lame excuses like 'I'm busy, My back aches' or BLABLAH. Hence, only a few of us went. Had fun too, despite the fact that the invisible wall was still there. Pictures are here!

School School School. What a miserable life with school days. Sitting right next to ZhiSan once again weelala! Front: Sam & Seth, Back: Jiawen & RueChien. The FengShui of my seat is so-so. But when the AC isn't on, I swear to god it feels like a burning oven. Cikgu Chang is our form teacher this year. She looks affable but she's sort of strict. Until the the 5th or 6th day of school, I think she's a very nice teacher. I, or much rather we, miss Mdm Foo a lot. We miss her smile, her laughter, her blur-ness, her extreme high pitch voice etc. Oh no Imma cry. Leaving is depressing. Why must humans have emotions? Miss Caryn didn't get the chance to teach us for the 3rd year. She insisted to, but she couldn't. Most of us are jovial to hear that Ms Caryn is not teaching us anymore and Miss Anita (our current English teacher) is better than Ms Caryn. But I think Ms Caryn is better, although her temper sucks sometimes.

Went for ensemble practise in Pastorale. Today's the 7th or 8th practise. But I went for the practise for solely twice. I was supposed to be one of the violin 1 players, teacher even gave me the violin 1 scores before the practise during class. But I was absent for a month, and I missed 4 practises, so teacher wants me to play for the 2nd violin. It's such a relief to me! Violin 2 scores are definitely much easier to be played. Also, I'll be playing the Beethoven's main piece with the band. But trust me, the scores make me go very very dizzy.

Chinese New Year is approaching. Not gonna get any angpaus because according to the Buddhist superstitions, we must not attend any birthday parties, getting angpaus or whatsoever within the 100 days after my grandpa passed away. I'm not so sure about that 'cos I don't really believe in superstitions. Sighs. Chinese New Year shopping? I guess I will have to wait for my mum and sis to be back from France. I can't tell you when will I be updating again 'cos I won't be updating that often. I need inspirations. -Holy mama, I'm listening to the canto version of Nobody WTH!!-

Forgive and Forget

xoxo

:: LIFE'S BRIEF CANDLE ::

2010-12-13T23:35:00.004+08:00

Now,

No one would call me ChenThongThong

with all warmth and love.

No one would console me with tears

when I'm down.

No one would tell me jokes

that could really make me laugh.

No one would make me a cup of milo

and say it's coffee.

Life's like this.

Unanticipated

Grandpa,

Rest In Peace

1928 - 2010

公公，我爱你。

Your granddaughter,

彤

xoxo

:: BEAUTIFUL LIARS ::

2010-12-01T13:56:00.008+08:00

I'm here to revive my blog. I know it's bad to abandon my blog for such a long time, but I have reasons! I'm back from Australia! Well I won't be writing anything about my vacation right now. Maybe some other day hey? 'Cos I still have loads to write. On tuesday, which is in the week before I go to Australia, me and JiaYing went to MidValley. Daddy fetched me to the bus stop early in the morning and both of us took the bus there. I like her face with china girl bangs :) . Watched Megamind in 3D. It was a great movie I would say! 4.5/5 isn't enough! After that, we had lunch in Spaghetti. Took a few pictures. Juppie, let's hang out another day okay? 'Else I'm gonna miss you to death LOL.

Oh No I'm addicted to Titanic theme song! I used to be addicted to it when I was standard 3. I liked singing it everywhere and I knew the lyrics well, which was the only song I could literally sing with correct lyrics. Actually, I'm really considering to take diplomas for piano. But when I think of stuffs that are going to be really tough for me to cope with, or nails that must be short every time, I'll just think that stopping right after Grade 8 exam will do. I don't know if this is a better decision, but I hope I won't regret. Teacher is kinda worried already as I skipped two theory classes. I will have to catch up with the class soon.

Chatted with ShiQi yesterday. Awh I miss her like hell! We just couldn't stop chatting. We were like never topicless. And we're gonna hang out someday! I'll just have to think of a day when people I'm gonna call will make it. 'Ya know, it's holiday! Everyone is traveling here and there, it's quite hard to gather everyone for outings. Big news here. Jeff bit me yesterday. I've no idea what he was up to but he was definitely hungry or something. It's just so disappointing to see scratches all over my hand, and the place where was bitten, hmmm, it was bleeding! Just pray hard that I won't get rabies. 'Cos rottweiler is a rabied animal. :D I'm thinking too much I guess?

I shall continue about my Kuantan trip. It's been left out for a long long time. So, after the beach walking, scenerial watching and all those, teacher brought us to a resort. Okay they said it's a resort but to me, it doesn't look like a resort at all. It sucked and I didn't like it. It was, rather suffering for me to stay there just for a night. Maybe it's because 10 of us had to live in a room together. 'Ya know, Carbon Dioxide kills. AND we only had ONE toilet in a room. In short, 10 of us had to share a toilet. You wouldn't believe how tiny the toilet was. O.O Don't imagine, it's a nightmare.

I shall stop critisizing about the resort. Each of us bought junk food and some hotcups. Hah it was so friggin' awesome I tell you! Our beds were full of those stuffs! Hell yea we failed finishing everything there, so each of us brought a few home. We were so hyped up that we actually treated ZhiSan's Olympus camera as a DSLR! Anyway, it's for sale right now! If you're interested with it please search 'ZhiSan Cheow' in Facebook and inform her, thank you! By the way, she has got herself a Nikon DSLR! I didn't get a chance to kill it. I missed the opportunity, precisely. I was supposed to attend an outing, 'Harry Potter Crew', but I was hell sick! Fever, flu, cough, sore throat, and the most unfortunately, SWOLLEN EYES! I'm allergic to a kind of chinese medicine and my dad gave me that particular medicine. So tadaa, eyes were terribly swelling for 3 days! Thank god it totally recovered before my Australia trip! - shyt, I must get back to my topic -

Our dinner was barbeque thingies. Me and YiLing had terrible stomach ache so went back to the resort earlier. They had a few activities in the cafetaria. Later, slumber party! Nah, it wasn't exactly a slumber party, I just called it so. We had our supper, which were junk food and hotcup maggies! My favourite LOL :D . The next morning, we went for mountain hiking. Mt. Limbeng I guess? We woke up at 4.15am, and guess what, I actually managed to wake up at that time! How shockening I KNOW!! We didn't have our breakfast, teacher said breakfast after hiking would be much nicer. Emilycwt --> no breakfast --> still sleeping. So yea, I was like still ZZZZ-ing. We walked to the hall. YongXin and WanZhen guided us with some basic warm ups.

As you know, I'm not that kind of sporty person. So mountain hiking was like NIGHTMARE to me I tell you. If you're my reader since last time you should have read the entry which I wrote about the FRIM trip with my friend. I slipped down on the mountain and THAT tragedy is like deeply carved in my mind. It's so vivid that it scares me sometimes. Hence, I was being very very cautious. I don't have good stamina so don't expect me to be like, the top half of the class to reach the top of the mountain. I was almost the last :D . Thank god, MrBeng was helping me through all obstacles from the start. Hell yea I only noticed he's one hell another gentlemen from our class! If I didn't get any help I would have fainted and rolled down! Serious! Remember, I didn't have my breakfast yet! I was quite dizzy already. Much thanks to Beng, I will NEVER forget how KIND you were, okay you still are :) . I was quite shocked 'cos you were not that kind of guy. The impression you gave me earlier was like, the kind of guy who doesn't care about others :D .

The scenery there was nice! The clouds, the colour of the sky, the fresh breeze ... Hmmmm ... Pictures will tell you everything! I didn't post everything up here. I have too many pictures. So, if you're interested, please view them in Facebook. The 1st album: HERE! , The 2nd album: HERE! . Oh No I'm in love with Kenny G. His songs are sooo WARM!! D: I wanna play like him. Nothing much to say right now, goodnight peeps.

xoxo